Fatherless

It's so hard to talk about this.
Why did you have to leave me?
It's so difficult for me
No daddy by my side.

No daddy to share my feelings with.
No daddy to comfort everytime I'm hurt.
No daddy to love me when no one does.
Why me, God, why?

I'm so jealous of all my other friends.
Who have their fathers on their sides.
Sometimes it gets too painful to deal.
Yet, I have no choice but to accept my Faith.

He was never there for me in my needy era.
I was never guided by him.
He never showed love and care for me.
As if I'm not his daughter.

Birthdays, graduation you've missed it all.
And it hurts so much I hope you knew.
You never showed up even once.
You never let me feel important.

When I go to school I always pretend.
Putting smile on my lips is what I am good at.
Just to look like I'm fine in front of everybody.
That way no one will notice how broken I am inside.

Father's day has come, everyone talk about their fathers.
And here I am trying not to listen.
Even though it's so painful to bear and act like fine.
Sometimes I just close my eyes and drop a tear.

I'm still glad that mom's here
Even she's far away from me.
She's all I've got for now.
Since you're never around.

My mom is my whole life.
She's always their to guide and protect.
I love her with all my heart.
Because I know she's bound to stay.

Honestly, I've waited for you yet you never showed.
I loved you but now I don't.
I gave you a chance yet I got disappointed.
You refuse and force me to get out from your life.

Everyday I dream of how perfect my life would be if you were here.
Being my shield and protector from all my fears.
Kiss me, hug me if I'm hurt.
But deep in my heart I know it will never be.

I'm still thankful for you giving life.
To see how beautiful the world is.
I will just move on and not to bother you.
Hoping you're happy with your new family.

I know God has always been and will always be the father to the fatherless.
He will always be there for me.
He will love me and protect me unconditionally.
And I will love Him and Praise Him everyday.