A knot too tight

Part 2- James

I couldn't wait to see Allie in her wedding gown.I bet she's going to be the most exquisite sight I had ever laid my eyes on, not that I would admit it to her of all the people. That girl needs a heavy dose of set down if the indifference with which she treats me is any indication. All my life I was used to women tripping over themselves to get to me, if it isn't my looks then it's my money that grabs their attention. That is everyone except Allie... I don't even know if she finds me attractive. Her lack of interest had put me on an edge, I was convinced that she was attracted to someone else, that she was having an affair behind my back. But trying to call her out on that had led me nowhere, the closest to attraction Allie showed to anything male related was to the stupid heroes in the books she keeps reading and her all time favorite being  Mr. Rochester.I even read that book to see what she liked about him so much. Really me, James Reed jealous of a character and that's how pathetic Allie has made me.I am just hoping that marriage would change all this, after all which woman can remain unattached to her very own husband.Thinking of Allie, I quickly fired another text to rile her up. I had settle for anger over indifference any day, I thought dryly.

Speed up darling. Come get your first kiss.I know you can hardly wait for it.

I could hardly keep from grinning picturing her expression right now, I know she's going to be livid. I didn't have to wait long for her reply.

You are wrong on both counts this is not my first kiss neither am I dying to have it from you of all the people.😏

The sudden urge to hit something or specifically the douchebag who took what was rightfully mine overcame me.My hands where shaking I couldn't do this, couldn't control my possessiveness for her. I don't know if it's love or obsession, didn't care if it was healthy or not, I wanted her to be as lost as me when it came to us but her calm collectedness just fueled more of the caveman within.
I hit the call button, I wanted to let her know that if I couldn't be her first then I was going to be her last and dare if she go against it. I wanted to throw her over my shoulder and go off to the remotest corner of the world so that she only thinks about me.
Allie's sweet voice greeted me from the other side of the line.

"Hello..James is everything alright. "

I liked the small note of worry which replaced the usual tone of dullness with which she always accosted me.

"Tell me the truth Allie.. Who was it. I asked you to open up to me time and time again about your relationships didn't I... I didn't want anything between us but you where adamant that there was nothing to say until now. And now suddenly you decide to act all experienced.. Ehh.. "

In the background I heard everyone worrying about what has gone wrong, but Allie just rested their doubts telling them that I was just having a pre-wedding breakdown. A freaking breakdown more like an explosion.

"James are we really going to discuss this right now. I am in the freaking car with witnesses"

Allie was pleading with me.

"Yes, we are!!! Since you just lied everytime we were alone. Now is as good as any a time. Now out with it. Was it that idiot, Tony?Wait now I understand why you were so reluctant to quit your job.You must have really enjoyed making a  fool out of me, didn't you."

In the background I heard Allie asking her father to stop the car.I waited while she made some excuse to move some where to get some privacy.

"What do you want jerk. I have half a mind to turn back this car. You know what I have to deal with? your freaking exes blowing up my phone with all sorts of photos with you. Pictures that makes me want to puke all time. Besides that there are the threats and warnings to stay away from you. And after all this you have the audacity to act victimized, isn't it. And that's what you deserve someone as unscrupulous as you and not me.And I don't know why I let you bully me into this farce.You know what,today's not going to be my first kiss because you freaking stole it before,that day we fought over my job. And I don't expect you to remember something as inconsequential as that. You hypocrite!! "

A couple of things happened after this outburst,one for the first time ever a woman cut her phone on me, second I wished I hadn't been such a libertine all my life and third I was ecstatic that it was only me... That Allie was all mine and her uninterest was because of those pictures or whatever,from my past and not because she was in love with someone else. I wanted to shout and high five myself may be. I tried to make a video call to Allie but of course she wasn't picking up so I called her brother,my best ally. And of course he picked up but the frown marring his face told me just how much  trouble I had caused.He tilted the phone a little to the side so that I could see Allie sitting slumped near the window. Wait was it tears on her face. I made my bride cry on the day of our wedding. No.. No... I will make it upto her I promised myself. But little did I know that fate had more sinister plans for us.