I am.. confused.
I tried to complete a puzzle, but one piece was missing. So I looked for that one piece everywhere I could, but the more I looked for it, more pieces started to disappear from the puzzle.
I get sad too easily. The more I try to feel the emptiness, the emptier it feels. It feels like the missing puzzle pieces are hidden behind the wall between me and the truth. But, how do I tear down the wall?
Where's the ego when I need it?
Honestly, it's driving me crazy and I don't know what 'it' is.
I think I know where the answer hides, but I have no courage to face it.
Haha. Yeah. Uh. It sucks.
Maybe I should just be a profiler. I wish I could just look at people, but I scan them. What sucks even more, is that I'll never know whether it's the truth or not. Or it's just that I always try avoid the truth because I know it's going to hurt.
But this time, I wish I was just being stupid. I wish that was fear-based. I wish that was miraculously my bad judgment.
Sometimes I wonder if sadness, actually happens to everyone. People who look happy, are happy because they're just good at hiding their sadness. Or it's just that it's not easy to be constantly happy.
When you show them your light, they can't see your shadow. So what about walking side by side with both the light and the shadow?
Can we still tell the truth if we're lying to ourselves?
So what does it take for someone to deserve the right to love someone else? But isn't love a feeling? So how do you choose not to feel something when you feel it?
I'm trying though.
I wish I didn't know what I know.
I'll find ways to eliminate the possibilities of 'this' becoming a mess.
I'm just trying to keep it as neat as possible. I want the happiness, to be at every the end of the day.
