Shameless .

one. I'm

Caina  Jones.

After long hot days of just sitting around in my  house - not my house necessarily,  My parent's -  eating loads of snacks that might make me fat but yet I still eat them , cause trust me,  there ain't anything better than - snickers and skittle, milkshakes with cherry on top, extra large size of burger And fries , large size of pizza with lots And lots of cheese , oh And coke, especially  on summer .

Well , not every good last forever... it was time for me to say bye- bye to relaxation and hello to hell of school. College.

Yeah , yeah, I know college,  Whoope -De -do lucky me.  Lots of fun! Parties! Cute boys!  Stupid friends!  I love the fun and party motherfuckery but it just wasn't enough.  The boy's were cute. But they don't measure up to my standards! Ugh.

"Caina !"  That's my mum, she'd be upstairs any minutes to drag me from bed. "Caina! You  better get your ass down here! I don't wanna come drag you from bed. It's so fucking hot at noon and you're making me cuss. I just told JC I'd never cuss again ___"

Just liked that,  she'd nag and nag till thy kingdom comes. All I do is just block her out and savour in the little minutes , I have in bed prior my departure.  I had a flight to catch --what? !! What's the fucking time?!!

I snapped awake . It was twelve thirty . I had just thirty minutes to catch my flight.  Damn! I jumped into the washroom. Brush my teeth quickly and I didn't even have fucking time to shower. I slipped from my pj and dripped on black shorts and a large t shirt and denim jacket with my Jordan. I ran downstairs stairs with my luggage.  I didn't even brush my hair. FUCK brush -i spent two hundred dollars on that tickets you know!  I couldn't afford to miss it.

"You look like crap!"mum blurted out. I sighed and rolled my eyes. I gave her a quick hug. " You should put on something more __"

"See you later mum!"I quickly rushed to the door. 

"Do you have your Ricky's platinum card?"She run out of the door with me .

"Yes , mum! Bye."

"Better spend a lot so that he's fucking bankrupted. Love you. " Mum shout behind after I'd stopped a taxi.  I waved her as  the taxi moved.

She was going to be alone again.  She and Ricky got divorced when I was just 12. Ricky is my stepfather . For my actual  father,they got married at really young ages. They were young and foolishly in love.  As they grew up a little and realized  their marriage  might have been a mistake because my dad started man whoring! You could almost smelling on him when he came back from business trip. Air hostess , maids , waitresses, secretaries. 

When I was born, he didn't still stop.  They argued a lot , my parents.  One day , we got news my dad was dead. He died exerting  his arteries while deflowering a chambermaid.  Ugh. What a miserable way to die.

After my dad's died. Mum found 'love ' again.  He was actually a real father to me. I call him Ricky-daddy .  But when he suddenly got super rich, mum started feeling insecure, and they argued a lot. So they divorced. She hated Ricky to the core . You know what they say. There's a thin line between love and hate. 

Ricky bought mum a house and provided everything she needed essentially (  I mean unnecessary things mum would do just to make Ricky bankrupted ) Ricky wanted to take me along, but mum didn't let him in court.  She  didn't want to be alone in her misery.  She's always nagging , drinking  And cursing Ricky after that she'd kneel before the virgin Mary's statue and pray for forgiveness. 

All my life I always did what she wanted, it's like she has planned my whole life ahead for me.,  perfect grades,  perfect school  then I'd get a perfect job and not focus on 'demons with grubby hands boys' - that is how she puts it.  She calls boys demons.  I know  she's only doing all this because  she doesn't want my life to up like the mistakes she'd made in her life.