I'm sorry I couldn't keep you

Jake

I woke up, I felt "happy" for once. I got dressed in my normal school clothes , nothing fancy and did my hair. Me , Amelia-Jane Smith, 16 years old , single and ready to mingle. Oh god, I hated when people said that. Anyways I went to a normal high school where everyone stared at you while you walked down the hall. I hated it. I hated everything. Everything I did was wrong. everything I was, was wrong. As I walked down the stairs, I hear my little sister. I decided to ignore her and keep walking to the door. As I walked out the door, my mom came to me and started to yell nonsense, but i ignored it, as always. I ignore a lot. I kept walking to school which was down the street. i wasn't new to the school, but I mean, no one really knew me there. and when the few that do know me either are my friends or know me as 'loner'. and this is why I hated life so damn much. I walked to the school, took a deep breath as I usually do, and open the doors to the school. i see everyone staring at me. and I felt pressure on my shoulders. it would make some cry, but me? I'm use to it by now. I go to my locker and then walk upstairs to my first class. Mr. Henderson..... Science. I really didn't like him and sometimes I would ditch to go get a cigarette with my friend Jessica, a old friend of mine. Today was different though, I felt different. I felt like I needed to be in that class today, and it was going to be something good. As the bell rang, all the students rushed in to class and sat down quickly. A new kid came in shortly after with a piece of paper to give to the teacher. He sat next to me and I didn't think much of it.
"Class, today we're going to start a new project, and you're going to need a partner," Mr. Henderson said as he walked around the class room. I witness everyone look at their friends as I sat there, looking blankly at the wall.
"And your partner will be your seat neighbor," he continues. I hear everyone let out a loud sigh and some yell out 'boo!'. I laugh to myself.
"What's funny?" I hear a voice I've never heard before. I look next to me and its the new boy.
"Just that they always think their going to get to be partnered up with their friends but really, he'll never do that " I said smiling down at my feet.
" oh," he said as he sighs. " hey , since we're partners, do you think we can hang out during break and lunch? you know to get everything situated?" he asked. I smiled a bit and look at him
" yea sure," I said. I knew it was because he was knew, and he didn't have anyone to hang out with. but I'm a nice person, and he's really cute. i laugh a bit to myself again.
" Why are you laughing now ?" he says. I thought to myself 'maybe he thinks I'm laughing at him' which I'm not.
" nothing, " I say smiling. I hear the bell ring and I close my book, so how bout after school, your house ? meet me at the cafeteria after class" I say and leave. I leave my number down on a piece of paper and slip it in to his bag. As I leave, I look bag and smile at him. I guess you could say I was flirting but didn't want to make it obvious. I fell asleep in mostly every class after that. I hated class, we'll let me re-say this, I hated school. but it didn't stop me from going , I mean I loved it. but not classes. I loved break because you know , friends. When the day was over, I got a text from a random number. it was him, telling me to meet him at the gym. I slowly walked to the gym, and saw him. I know what your thinking, this is moving a bit fast right ? well it's not. I feel like I've known him my whole like. and to think , I've only meet his today. I walk up to him and tap on his shoulder, " you ready to go?" I say. he nods his head as he started to walk, his head faced on his phone. as we walk, I didn't know quite where we were going so I walked a bit behind. while we past a couple of fast foods places, he finally got off his phone.
"sorry I was on my phone , just texting my mom to see if it was okay for you to come over" he said smiling at me. " oh and. I kind of live far from the high school but it'll give us time to get to know each other " he said. he looks down at my hand, I was looking down but I could see him staring at my hand in the corner of my eye. it stayed silent for a bout 10 minutes till I finally spoke up.
"so, how was your first day here ?" I Asked. "i know how it feels , you know, to be the first kid here. I didn't start off here in the beginning of the year like the rest of the kids that went here. I'm kind of , sorta, new. " I say.
" it was okay I guess , I mean , kids welcomed me good. and i meet this girl. she pretty cool" he said smiling widely. hmm, was this his way of flirting with me , because if it is, he's horrible at it.
" oh really? and who is this girl," I says looking down at the ground.
" you ." I stay silent. but inside, I'm kind of smiling. I'm not really the person to smile a lot, but only smile when I really know I'm suppose to or people will think I'm rude or something. I see him go into his backpack and pull out a carton of cigarets.
" want one?" He ask as he takes one out and hands it to me.
"sure " I say , and. take it out his hand. I love cigarets and why would I pass one down , especially by a cute boy. as we keep walking , he lights my cigaret and we keep talking, share some laughs. and then as we turn the corner he looks at me, and I look back as we both share a smiles and I gaze into his eyes. he had really pretty green eyes that went with his light brown hair. I couldn't help to admire him, and his beautiful skin. wait, I barely meet him , I know nothing about him. what if he's like a serial killer or something, he can kill me any time he want *wink wink*. oh god, Amelia, snap out of it. but wait. he so.... gorgeous. I finally snap out of it about a couple of seconds of thinking to my self , he can murder me any time he wants .. reading to many fan fictions about famous celebrities ( Victor Fuentes ). so , anyways. after a while of smiling at eachother , we walk into his house. where studying shall begin.