i hope you're happy. •[Skephalo Short Story]• {COMPLETED!}

•Journal entry 4•

September 12, 2020, 10 days after the accident

hi. its been.. 10 days since your leave. i can tell im being driven mad by you. you really wont leave me be until you get what you want, huh? i dont think thats gonna happen. you dont get that satisfaction of darryl being gone. youre starting to bug me.

today darryl and i took a bike ride. we just rode around for a while around the neighborhood. he... he looked so carefree, with the wind blowing through his hair. his laugh is so cute and bright. fuck ow stop 

im sorry, ok? i cant help falling for him. i said i was joking before but i dont think i am anymore. i really do love him. i still love you, but.. ive lost all hope youll leave me alone. darryl loves me, no matter how badly ive fucked up. im starting to believe you dont actually want to stay here because you love me. i think its just because you want darryl dead.

ha i knew it. i know because your screaming just got louder. 

i know your slowly driving me insane. some times i cant even comprehend what im doing. sometimes i just lose myself. sometimes i just think its all a dream. maybe im not going crazy. i wouldn't know. maybe its because i am crazy. i wouldnt know. i ve never been crazy before. atleast i dont think. maybe im crazy right now. i wouldnt know.

darryl would know. he would wrap me in his arms and comfort me. he would tell me im perfect, tell me that even if i was crazy he would still love me. he would still love me. love me. something im questioning if you ever did. 

haha. it doesnt even hurt anymore. i cant even feel the pain through my tears anymore. no matter how much you scream at me it wont hurt anymore. im too hurt to experience any more pain.

oh darryl just came in just now. he heard me crying. he left a few moments ago. he checked in on me, made sure i was ok. i told him i was fine and that i justneeded a hug. so hedid. he hugged me for a solid 5 minutes. i feel better now. youve stopped screaming so icansleep now. i think im.. not ok

im not ok

but darryl makes me ok