His Lies

'I'm so Tired'

So, its me- I know nobody gives two shits but here I am

If you didn't read the desc., I'd advise you to. ( I'm also going to put some slightly positive things in here, He's basically just going to try and convince himself that he'll be fine.)

I also do not own any of the art unless I say otherwise.

If you are feeling like this at all I'd suggest you tell someone you trust about it ( I know its hard af to do-)

~ Grey

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Italics=Writing or texting

Bold Italics= Thinking

Normal= talking

Dear whoever is to eventually find this,

I'm so tired of all of this. I'm tired of waking up and dreading to even go downstairs, tired of pretending to be happy,smiling... I'm tired of everything sometimes I just wish that I'd fall asleep and just never wake up. Its hard you know? Getting up and pretending to be alright, it's more tiring then the hero training. Smiling and joking, but I mean, it's worth it right? As long as everyone else is happy it'll be just fine.

I wish I could actually know what emotions are, like which ones are which. Right now all I think I feel is pain and a bit of sadness. I cant really identify them as it seems too hard to explain in words. It's like a dull feeling, but its still there, like I said, I cant necessarily identify it as I kinda went numb after all the insults and tormenting teasing etc. I know it may sound like a stupid thing to be down just because of it, but words can hurt. Especially if they're from your 'best friend' (I just realized that kinda sounds like Midoriya and Bakugo- ~ Grey) . Today during class I didn't really pay attention at all. I got in trouble multiple times, though I'm not very surprised as I had started randomly doodling and sketching on my paper and zoning out during the lectures.

Bakugo was throwing insults at Midoriya(typical Bakuhoe), calling people names etc.The Hero training, classes etc. etc. nothing really exciting or new, except for the fact that there was a new guy today. He replaced Mineta, which I had mixed feelings about that ( he was too perverted but he was also a decent person If he didn't try and do his version of flirting all the time) I cant remember the guys name too well though. All I know is that he has purple hair and looks like he hasn't slept in years.(I haven't slept in months and I still look like I would if I actually did get sleep-) But he did look like a cool guy to hang out with.

I was actually quite tired today,but that could be because I slept . For some reason whenever I sleep and then wake up again, i'm more tired than I would be if I hadn't. Its odd that that happens when I actually do get sleep- Eh oh well, doesn't really matter. The thing i'm worried about is well, the (TW!!(?))

Cuts and bruises on my legs and stomach. Make up wont do very much for either of them when i'm changing. I had

Denkis POV:

I heard banging on my door, probably not a good sign. I quickly but silently, grab my notebook and shove it in between my bed sheets and my bed. I quickly put my math and literacy textbook on my desk and tried to neaten everything in here before I open my windows and start walking to the door.

"OPEN THE DAMN DOOR YOU BITCH" I heard my mother say. She had been trying to convince my dad to just take the whole door off and put security cameras in my room since I locked it so much. She had got to banging on my door at night and very early in the morning. I was so sick and tired of it.

As soon as I unlock the door she slams it open, throwing me to the floor in the process.I use As soon as I hit the floor I get a stinging feeling (sensation?pain? I don't even know anymore-) in my wrist. I look down and see it's twisted in an odd position on the floor slightly behind me as I used it to catch myself before I fell on my back. Hopefully it's not broken so I can actually do schoolwork. She looks at me, scowling. "what did I tell you about locking the fucking doors?" She asks, scowling at me as she does so. "N-not too.." I mumble. I curse internally, knowing I both stuttered and mumbled. "What was that?" She asks walking  towards me in attempt to scare me. "Uh-I- Not too!-" I manage to say, scrambling to my feet as I do. She rolls her eyes and says in a quiet voice, but loud enough for me to hear, "You're so annoying sometimes." 'What I tell myself everyday. Thanks mother- I needed that reminder just about now' As she walks out of the room she says in a bored tone of voice, "your fathers at work and I'll tell him when he gets home."
Well that's a lie- she has said this so many times but yet never says anything to him in the end. I know I should probably be the one to tell him, but like- he already has too much stuff to deal with anyways. And besides, he thinks I'm fine so if I keep up the act-
I was interrupted by the sound of my alarm clock ( as I was usually late, I had to have an alarm that woke me up around ten minutes before the school bell rang).

I quickly put on my uniform, careful of the bandages I had put on the night before, grabbed my backpack and shoved everything I needed in there. I then rushed down the stairs, but stopped immediately. Did I forget anything? Did I do the assignment? Will they be able to read my handwriting? What if my paper is too short? Did I misspell anything? What if I got something wrong?
All these thoughts came flooding in at once giving me a headache.
Fuck it I thought as I raced out of the house, barely noticing my mother watching me (why the hell-) You know what? Your gonna be fine. Everything's fine- right?- I probably did it? I probably didn't get too many problems wrong right? Yeah that's-
"Oi Dunce face. Where the hell have you been?!"
I was bitch slapped back to reality as soon as I heard Bakugos voice.
"O-oh hey guys! Sorry to keep you waiting!" I say putting on my best smile.
"It's alright bro!" Kirishima says with a smile. "Let's go now we're going to be late-" Mina says     As she starts dragging Sero towards UA.

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Uh- it's me, Grey again•-•
Anyways, how do you think it is so far?-
I mean I know it's kinda bad because it's one of the first stories I have written, but tell me what I should improve on or if you have any ideas for the next chapter.
Hope your having a decently good day/night/morning/evening bYe-
~GrEy

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