kenma's suicide story ⚠️ TW ⚠️

Nekmo Pain

Hey kenma I play volleyball at nekmo and my friend kuroo I have a crush on him but he is too self absorbed too notice me anyways I feel sad most of the time and all this trauma I had as a child my dad leave me on a train but I'm glad my mom found me before I died even tho sometimes I wish she had left me there it sucks being in this world I hate it with so much pain and grief I felt it hurt like a huge rock was on your chest unable to breathe and every second of it hurts like someone is stabing you in the chest i would put all my sadness into my video games but it seems like it's not really working anymore kuroo had seen me cry in my sleep before it was scary I couldn't sleep for nights overthinking what he thinks about me right now I feel unstable and this huge mountain of guilt on my back from when my dad had abandoned me it felt like it was my fault I was burden to others like I am now I felt like I needed an escape an excuse to run away from my problems I went to practice today and it was fine till kuroo said loudly in front of the team hey kenma are you okay I was a little shocked at first and nervous since everyone's eyes where starting down into my spine like rocks I shook it off and said I was fine with a fake smile yet nobody noticed it was fake, I asked the captain if I could leave early today he agreed with a worried face I got my stuff and left little did I know that kuroo was following me home I went back took a shower and balled my eyes out I was so scared that I would be judged I cryed loudly I was so loud I didn't hear kuroo coming in he ran as fast as he could barging in hugging me saying never say anything like that ever again in the shower our clothing we're wet from the water