Pure Innocence

~Chapter one~

Fragile.

 One of the few words to describe the feelings that this one girl reprieves  on a daily basis.

Anxiety has overtaken her world, turning most moments that are meant for joy to turn into panic. A nervous disorder caused many moments to churn into the worst, but who can you blame.

When she was born she was diagnosed with some mental set backs. She has adhd,ocd, a severe anxiety disorder, and many that cause her to act child like.  

Her childlike actions are what caused her the only peace she could make out. It went from talking to any animal or bug, to playing with her stuffed animals she got for getting a shot.

 She loved having her animals in a set place, not allowing anyone to move them.

 Her animals are her only form of friends. They keep her secrets, hold her thoughts, and giver her advice. The best friend group she could have right?

Well that is the best type of friends she could get, being everyone else turning her cold. 

She goes to a high school down the block of her house, about a  7 minute walk distance. 

Everyone there takes no effort into sharing love, instead share hurtful comments on Billies living struggles.

They waste no time to walk up to her every morning, calling her such names, "freak" "looser" "slow" "mental" "dumb" and so on. 

Her only way of coping is either to drown out her thoughts with light hum's she creates threw her mouth, or sucking on a sucker.  Suckers help ease her pain and thoughts, more or less to drain out the feelings other present to her.

Another thing about her is she is completely pure. She doesn't like to think about boys,girls,sex,drugs,alcohol,porn,or violence.  

She believed if she found out about such deserted topics her innocence would soon blow away, turning her into some dark monstrous person.

Don't take her wrong she believed in love, but she never believed someone could love her. I mean who would want to love a person who acts in such manners. 

That is all Billie could think about when brought up to such topic. She had one crush her whole life, on a boy names Jack.

 She never wanted him in any way but for hope and reassurance, because I mean that's what love is for right?

 The boy never thought of her  as anything but mental, wasting no time telling her such words. Billie was broken,lost,hurt. She lost all will to try to find someone for her own, leaving her lost in her forest mind.

Most think she is lonely, which she is, but she raters that then being with someone who uses her and only hurts her worse. 

Most would think that love is the only thing diving your path to success but to the blue haired girl there is more to it.

 You see, Billie loves nature, its her second home. If anyone were to say triggering words, move her animals, or shes stressed, she would go to a mini residence near her. 

Its a mini nature reserve, not nearly big enough for her to get lost or scared. 

She just lays in the mini patch of grass, watching and the multiple hued birds chirp against the willow trees, insects beating and rummaging threw ever nook of the wood hollows. 

Snakes and Lizards having show downs at the end  of the creek, and fish swimming oh so vastly, they're scales reflecting against the bright sun peaking threw the leaves.