Jealousy in an ugly thing

jealousy is an ugly thing

Chapter 1 -

nine was supposed to be out and having fun, but instead of having fun, he found himself stuck in the dorm. Doing nothing but space out. His mind was filled with the same thoughts piling up through his head. He vaguely remembers when it start, but he realize that his infatuation towards joong is growing. He started to notice everything about joong. How he move .How he talk . How he smile. How he laugh and everything. Sometimes nine thinks joong smile is brighter than the sun with his pearly white teeth completely exposed. His laughs sounds better than music because joong is anything but perfect as that for nine.

nine was attracted to joong, but he doesn't know if it's normal. He doesn't know if it's normal for him to stare at joong longer than he should be. He doesn't know if it's normal for him to feel giddy everytime joong sits next to him. He doesn't know if it's normal for his heart to pound like crazy whenever joong flash a smile to him. Everything joong does is enough to build that fluttering sensation inside his stomach.

There were times nine hated himself for not being able to understand what's happening to him. And he hated that certain reason of his problem who always popped in his mind turning his head like a notification panel. He hated him for making him confused and helpless.

A sigh escaped through his lips as he still couldn't figure out how to solve his problem. He was still spacing out when the rest of his members slowly gathered in the living room.

" Day dreaming again! " He heard someone gave a cocky comment. He snap his head towards the owner of the voice and saw pavel flop himself on the cushion landing next to him with a delightful groan escaped his lips. Someone then chuckled acquiring his attention. nine swiftly snap his head to his right side and saw dome was grinning at him.

" So what's been troubling our nanie? " Ask the two simultaneously. It wasn't the first time they saw the latter deep in thoughts so they could easily tell if something is bothering him. As an older, pavel diligently put an arm around Jinyoung's shoulder while dome settled himself next to the latter.

" Well there's this someone kept bothering me " nine started a little hesitant. Because he's talking to pavel who always gives a witty comments over everything and sometimes he tend to exaggerate things.

Fiddling his fingers, he pondered for a while if it's okay for him to open up to the latter because he doubt pavel would take the matter seriously. But then pavel moved closer to him and look at him solemnly.

" Who's bothering you? Tell me and I got this " Tells pavel showing up his sturdy fist to nine as if ready to break someone's face.

" Um..No it's not like that! " Quickly said nine. " It's just.. that person kept popping in my head and it really bothers me. It confused me " He pouted.

" nine you shouldn't talk this matter to pavel. It's quite serious! " Warned dome looking skeptical at Jackson.

" Tsk.. As if he could talk this matter to a piggy made from bangkok " Scoff pavel.

" I'm not a piggy " Protest dome.

" Shut up bangkok boy "

nine massage his head upon hearing the two bicker. It didn't help to solve his problem. It only made his head hurt and the sudden sound of laughters echoes in the room made it worst. nine could hear joong's laugh distinctly mix with ben's grandpa laugh which nine found quite obnoxious. He doesn't care whoever cracked a joke or whoever did something funny. Because right now he hate the sight of joong clinging to ben. The hateful sight made him scoff under his breath along with the roll of his eyes. But he doesn't want to make his actions too obvious so he leans his head over pavel's shoulder and closed his eyes.