A one shot

Gon

Every time I look in to his carnal eyes it always send a shiver down my spine. Gon how do I put this he is light he is my every thing. But I can't tell my every thing that he means so much to me. It's so hard to keep this feelings locked up inside of me when every day I see him. So to day I'm gonna tell him I don't know how are when but I will tell him. Are so i thought in till he ask me this.

Killua what would you do if I died. He said this with stern almost eger eyes.

My stomach just dropped and froze at those words. My mind though was going crazy a million question filled my head. Like what does he mean if he died why would he ever die why would some one put Gon s name and death in the same sentences. 

I know Gon had know clue what I was feeling because his expression was still the same as when he first asked. Or that was because he could not see my face because I'm laying on my back on his bed.  

He is sitting at his desk in the spiny chair. With a answer my damn question look but his eyes never changing  back to his cheery joyful look but the stern and egry one. That sends chills down my spine and not the good ones.

G-gon what kind of questions is that! What made you think that you needed to ask that. 

Killua it's just a question, was it wrong to ask it. 

My eyes just widen at this was he sereas this is not just a question we are talking about Gons heart stopping his body terming ice cold and all that's alive or him is are memories the sad and good. So why is he asking me that hopefully he's not thinking bad thoughts. No I don't think so he's to happy but with the face he's making now I really don't know. 

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Killua has not said a thing to me really and I don't know why. I mean I just asked him a question I just what to know what he would do really. 

Killua~

Wha what g-gon 

You did not answer my question?

I don't know.

That hurt me a little but I bushed it off maybe he  needs a little help. Hey Killua how about I say a nother questions kinda like the fire one but there easyer . Ok!

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To be honest I did not like the first questions so I dout  I will like these. I'm gonna do them any ways because he's gon and for some reason it's so hard to say no to him. Ok Gon.

Ok Killua if I died how sad would you be.

Ok so he gonna make them more pesifec. But still every time he says his name and die,dead and the other words like thous my stomach freezes and just drops and my heart akes. Gon do I have to answer these questions. As soon as I said this i wished I hadn't because sadness courses thru Gons eyes.  Nevermind G on I'm gonna answer them ok, well I would be depressed if you died.

Oh.... Ok um next how long would you be depressed Killua .

When he says these there is no sadness, fear, anger just a stern and egryness . Most times I know what Gon s getting at but this I have now clue and it's buging me .I mean my best friend is asking me this and I have no clue as to why. 

Gon I would be depressed for a very very long time . When I said that Gon looked at me like I had just grown a mustache on my face. 

K-killua you would move on right i mean I could die at any moment with the world we live in. Y-you can't stay sad for that long and you would have to move on for Alluka right. 

Know it's my tern to look like he had just grown a link mustash . Does Gon really think I could move on I mean just a little before I was going to tell him I love him. I mean I would still  look after Alluka but that does not mean I have to move on what is he thinking.

What Gon I could never move on no matter how hard I try! Also I'm hear to protect you from this world no matter what. As I said this i stud up and cupped his cheek with my hands then a tingling feeling when thou my finger tips to my elbow.

Gon s eyes finally changed in to surprised when I did this but he did not protest to it so I left my hands there and I sofend my gazed.

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When Killua sofend his gases and when his soft ,worm hands touched my cheeks i know he ment it. Most people thank that Killua is just a cold hearted ex assassin or just assassin. But he does care about people and how I know is when he looks at Alluka. Alluka is his family so that's why his main and only priority should be Alluka.

Killua the only person in this world you need to protect is Alluka, ok. When I said this i moved my hand to hold his. His hand are so soft but there so cold too.

Bu-but Gon I can protect you both from this world you see.

 I smiled at this yes I am very obliveant and dumm some times but I do know what this feeling I feel for killua is and I'm not going to make him suffer when the time comes so I'll make a deal that he will argue me for but I just can't let him . I love him and I have been thanking about this some time I don't know why but I just have.

Killua who would you pick if me and Alluka where hold at  gun point and you only have time to save one of us. When I said this the soft expresson faced from his face. You see Killua you know who you would save? as I said this I can tell I'm getting on his nerves just by how he's looking at me, his face is scowling. 

Gon I'm done with these questions your asking get to the point on why your asking them. Now! His  voice starting to raise at the end  of his sentence. 

Look Killua something like that might happen in the future, and we'll i don't whant you to make a wrong choice. Killua I care about you so much and I think protecting Alluka should be you main goal. And I will protect you ok. 

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What Gon just said made my heart just sink what does he mean I should just protect Alluka. 

Gon! What's that spost to mean then who the he'll is gonna protect you! And wrong choice what made you think me protecting you is a wrong choise!

I'm starting to get angrier by the minute. I mean why is he talking this way next thing you know he is telling me that he's dieing.  I mean it's bad enough that every time his name and the word death is in the sentence tears are trying to brake free. 

Gon  lesson to me this is enough of this don't protect stuff you hear me ok. I'm gonna protect you and Alluka with my life until I die . At that moment I could not hold back the states any longer they started flowing. 

And as I sit there some how me with both my hands on his shoulders and his expresson that is now a seareas look that's not leaving any time soon. I could not take it any more the person I love is telling me that he does not w ant me to protect him. I took my hands off of his shoulders and sat back on the bed not making she contact any more. I was about a minute until Gon started to speek. 

Killua I love you and I care about you so I don't want you to lose the thing that makes you the happiest ok. I don't need you to try to protect me and thin lose Alluka in the prosses . I wouldn't be able to live with my self if that happend. So I'm just going to take a step bake and protect you ok. Because if some how I died I need you to be able to move on for Alluka. So no need to protect me anymore ok Killua. 

When he stoped talking i was stunned he loved me but why is he stepping  back now I mean it's not like he is dieing anytime  soon. When I finally came to my senses i saw him get up from his seat walk over to me and kissed my forehead. His lips are so soft on my forehead but when I got out of my trance all I saw was the door of his room shut. So I just sat there now looking up at the ceiling thanking about what all he said and that he loved me but he just left me too and was that a tear i saw she he kissed my forehead.