So it has been 2 months I've turned single . " Sweet 16 . May this year bring a galore of happiness for you ..may all your wishes come true . You're the best " they said . In these 16 years of life all I got is disappointment and I've never been satisfied . All I've been craving for is some true friends and true soulmate for life . A guy who will love me endlessly .. Like me even I don't have any make up on .. Who will care for me , won't give up on me for some other girl. A guy who would understand me better than any person on earth . I'm quite immature and innocent say people . That's why I feel I've made a fool of myself by giving a chance to every second guy finding love in my teen age . I know its time to get practical enough in life but I feel its not my cup of tea . I just wanna live my life in my own way . Be independent and runaway to a place which is beyond anyone's reach . A place which can provide me peace and joy of living in my own lovey-dovey bubble world . Studies ..studies and studies !! Do hell with it mahn !! I just don't like touching my books these days . I want to chase my dreams . Dreams which my parents are tearing apart from my heart . Today I'm repenting being in commerce stream . In the past few years I've been like a butterfly , a confused mind . Parents think I'm the same till date and hence they pushed me into commerce . On top of that the bloody astrologers have rotten their brains saying " If I join science all I'll receive is failure in life ." If I'll join arts my parents think its not worth and kinda matter of shame for them . Never mind .. My college started .. I started gaining a treasure of experiences which actually taught me the actual meaning of life . Some were good and some were bad .. Both oft them made me write long texts and expressed my feelings in them . I ultimately came across my hidden talent . I realised I can be a good writer . People started appreciating my writings and said I should start publishing articles or commence writing book . If I'd make a blog it will be a success and commendable they said . I started getting influenced by what all they said . I read Chetan Bhagat's writings . They have just kindled in me a desire to jump into Arts , take literature and do article-ship further and become an aspiring writer like him . I shared about the new born talent in me and wish of joining Arts stream . As soon as my parents heard this they literally frowned at me and have been dominating me to stick to Commerce . I was .. Infact I'm and will be upset for this foolish decision of my parents . After their denial I've purposely started not to concentrate on my studies and read books and write as much as I want to . If people tell me to define what ' shit ' is . I'd describe it in two words - My life respectively. Today I want to run away to USA . Get a good job over there , stay on rent , be a good writer . Build a good physique , do photoshoots . Find a loyal guy over there . Go shopping with him and clubbing too . I know this is really something foolish and childlike . Well this is what I'm all about . I believe 'impossible' word doesnt exist in my dictionary . Trust me !! If i get a chance of scooting me out of India I'll surely not miss it. I'm gonna make my wishes come true . At present my life sucks but simultaneously I can perceive my shinning future .. I should stop dreaming and start chasing . Stop thinking and start doing . " Dream and Achieve " is my new year resolution and will always be untill and unless I don't touch my dreams ...
Cheer up Dhwani Shah ❤️ you'll be meeting your Madhav Jha soon ;) ( if you know what I mean )
