Lost in Thought

My Everything and More

I wish I could explain the way they make me feel. I wish I could find the words that could truly encapsulate the love I feel for them. God they just really make me feel like I truly do mean something to them and I can tell that their every "I love you"s are genuine. It all still seems like a daydream to be honest, like it sometimes just feels too good to be true. These past few years have been amazing and I'm so glad that I met them. We've come so far since those many sleepless nights just so we could hear each other's voices. 3 AM came far too quickly back then and before we knew it, it would already be 7 AM. I miss those days but at the same time, I'm glad I no longer have to wait to hear their lovely voice. I'm glad I no longer feel like I have to hide how I feel about them from my family. But most of all, I'm glad that after all these years they are still the one who has my heart. They mean everything to me and I never want to lose them. Honestly, if that day ever does come where I do lose them, I don't know what I'd do. It would feel like I lost part of myself as well. They are my everything, they're my love but most importantly they're also my best friend. They've come to feel more like home to me than anything else. They never fail to show me immense love and care and they truly make me feel safe with them. I just know that whatever the future has in store for us, we'll make it through it together in one way or another. I love them more than anything and I'm so lucky to have someone as amazing as them in my life. They always know how to make me smile and laugh, even when I feel like shit and don't want to. And I love how they always make sure to say 'goodnight' to me each night and of course that includes their nightly "I love you"s that they don't like to go to sleep without saying. And how could I forget their 'good morning' messages they send each morning cause they know it makes me happy to wake up to them. I truly do love seeing those "good morning beautiful" texts, they give me butterflies every time. I love them with all my heart and I hope they know that. They are honestly the best thing to ever happen to me and I'm just so glad that I still have them in my life after all this time. I'm so lucky to be able to call them mine and to say I'm their's. They are the best partner I could ever ask for and I truly hope we last forever. That's the dream, to eventually one day have a home of our own and be able to wake up next to each other every morning. And of course for me to one day be their wife. God I'm just so in love with them like I can never get enough of them. I mean god they just make me feel so many amazing things, including some things that's just for them to hear about so let's move on. My point is that they are honestly the love of my life and I plan to make this last between us. When I think about my future, I see them there with me. I don't want that to ever change so I'm aiming for that future with them beside me. They know I'm stubborn and that once I set my mind on something, I will do everything in my power to achieve it. So that's exactly what I intend to do.