Operation Revenge

Chapter Twenty-Two: Devastation

** Tadley's POV: **

Everything seemed to stop around me, what did he just say? Please, please, tell me i didn't hear him correctly...

"I'm sorry, what did you just say?" I questioned him begging he would say something other than what he just did.

"Due to the trauma and blood loss Miss Addams has sustained, she's miscarried.." He repeated himself. My heart shattered in my chest.

"What do you mean she miscarried? You have to be pregnant to miscarry!" I stated my brain just not computing.

"Oh, i'm so sorry, sir! I thought you knew.. Miss Addams was at least five weeks pregnant.." He explained. I felt like i was going to pass out. I sat back against the wall and just let my body slide down until i was sitting on the ground. I can't believe this, we were going to have a baby? Did she know?

I was going to be a daddy...

"Mr. Matthews, are you alright?" He asked softly. Of course i'm not al-fucking-right! I was just told i was going to be a father, and that now i'm not.

But i didn't say that. I just simply nodded my head and kept looking down at the ground as the never ending tears continued to flow down my face. I've never felt this kind of pain before. It's devastating.

"I'm so sorry for your loss.." He patted me on the shoulder and walked away, i don't know how long i was sitting out in the hallway, but the door opened and her dad exited. He looked down at me with worry. But he took a seat beside me on the ground.

"What happened? What did the doctor say?" He asked quietly.

"She..... S-she was pregnant..." I sobbed, wiping the dripping tears from my face, i felt Jason squeeze my shoulder.

"Was?..." He questioned so quietly i could barely hear him over my own sobs.

"She miscarried because of the trauma and blood loss... I didn't even know, i don't even know if she knew... How can i feel so devastated over something i didn't even know i had?" I questioned.

"Because it was yours, it was your child, your flesh and blood. You may not have known that you were going to be a father, but that doesn't mean you didn't want to be, it doesn't mean that it's gonna make it hurt any less when you learn that your child was ripped away from you.." He explained.

"I don't know what to do. This is all my fault, and i may lose the love of my life because i was stupid and didn't realize sooner who it was..." I said shaking my head angrily.

"It's not your fault, you couldn't have known that Cindy was betraying Kenslea, you couldn't have known that your ex was going to turn out to be a psycho. This is their fault, not yours. You stood beside her through it all, and that is all that matters. You love her, you know it, she knew it, we all know it... Everything is going to be okay. She's a fighter, she's not going to give up, she'll fight her way back to us.. Now, let's go back in there and see our girl." I nodded and we stood up and walked back into the room.

I took my seat and resumed holding her hand. Come on, baby, come back to me. We still have our whole life to plan out. We still have so much time we need to spend together. So much we still need to do!

** 3 Days Later **

I haven't left her side, i've showered here, i've eaten here, i've slept here. I haven't left once, and i don't plan on it. Not til she's awake and i know she's okay.