REGRET IS WHAT I FEEL NOW... (Completed✔)

Regret is what I feel now... PART 3

Back with the third and probably last part of this SS
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Continuing from last part...

After Karan uttered those painful words he almost lost his senses. He... he fell unconscious. Mom and Dad took him with them, refusing to spare uncle, aunty and me a look. Uncle and aunty were busy in consoling themselves while I was left alone. Totally alone!! If I regretted after knowing that Su..rbhi was not at fault, I was the one; then now I'm broken after knowing the misdeed happened with her. I... I don't know what to say. What should I do now to get her justice. Karan is right. I'm, only me no one else is more guilty here. I was sitting like a statue, remembering our first meet, her smile, frown, pout, shining eyes, puppy-dog face, our banters, cute night outs which usually ended up with me carrying her to her room, funny talks, her childishness, our confession, her possessiveness, blushing face, I was remembering all her sweet moments with probably a smile on my face but I guarantee that it changed into a sad face full of regret as soon as the scenario of that night played in my vision. Tears welled up and rolled down my cheeks when I realised that I can no more see her, I can't meet her now, I can't apologize her, I can't do anything to bring her back. She is gone...far away from me, from this cruel world, from the untrustworthy people, leaving just her memories. SHE LEFT ME, SHE WENT AWAY FROM ME, SHE FREED HERSELF FROM OUR RELATION, SHE FLEW AWAY!!!!!! I..... I want to see her, hug her, apologize her, bring her back but I can't. I FUCKING CAN'T DO ANYTHING. I'M A BASTARD! I was sheding tears when she went away from my imagination too. I was shaken badly. Rohini aunty was pointing towards uncle who was lying down by now. OH SHIT!!! HE HAD A HEART ATTACK!!!

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I was now in the CITY hospital, staring at Anand uncle who was fighting between life and death now. I again zoned out...

Surbhi was now standing just before me. She have a smile on her face. She is looking like a fairy who just came down on earth from paradise. I'm starting at her without blinking as if she is gonna leave me the moment I closed my eyes, even if just for a mini-second. I fear that. She closed the distance between us. I opened my arms wide, hoping that she would hug me. But, she PASSED THROUGH ME. I turned back to see where she went and the next thing I saw astonished my senses. She was moving towards the pathway which leaded to HEAVEN...NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! She can't leave me like this. I ran towards her to catch her but she disappeared in the air.

''SURBHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!''

I waked up and realised that it was just a dream. But........she left me in reality too. I lost her forever.

The one who said that 'Karma is a bitch' was damn true. It really is. When Surbhi needed me the most I left her. I pushed her away and now she is gone so far that no one could bring her back. I can't handle this. I just CAN'T. It's killing me.

Next morning uncle's condition was stable and I leaved a sigh of relief. I just couldn't leave the hospital as Surbhi would hate me more after knowing that I left her parents in this bad situation. I need to support them unless they become stable and after that, I will go to 'her'. Vese bhi meri mout par rone wala ab koi nahi. Jo the, vo aaj nafrat karte hai mujhse. Karni bhi chaiye, mene galti nahi gunha kia hai jiski saza mujhse pehle mere uss pyaar ko mil gayi jispe me bharosa tak na kar paya. I'm sorry Surbhi. I'M SORRY. Janta hu ki maafi ke kaabil nahi hu me. Par filhal kuch aur nahi kar sakta Mai. Ek aur aisa faisla nahi lena chahta jisse fir kisi aur ki maut ka karan banu. Tumko kho dia hai mene par ab shayad yahi saza hai meri. Aisa lag raha hai ki koi dil noch raha hai mera. Vapas aa jao na. I promise, dobara aisa kabhi nahi karunga. Bahot dard ho raha hai, MARR RAHA HU ME!! MAR RAHA HU!!! Hi just broke the glass window into pieces...