Why Can't We..?

Chapter 14

I took a deep breath as I stared at myself in the mirror. We spent the entire afternoon laughing and talking while he kicked my ass in his pc games. I almost forgot we had a date planned for tonight. 

A date.

With Jin. 

I was having a hard time accepting the fact that I was interested in him, and that I agreed to a date. I felt like it couldn't be real, like I was doing something wrong. Like I was going to ruin him if we became serious. He told me to relax and not think too much about it. 
But that was way easier said than done. 

I decided on a black sundress for tonight with a black cardigan to wear over top if I got cold, black flats, and I did my entire face up in makeup, I wore my long black hair down and put waves in it, I felt beautiful. I just hoped he thought so too. He had knocked on my door while I was getting dressed and told me he'd be back and that he was taking my car somewhere. So after I was done beating myself up mentally in the mirror I paced around the living room waiting for him to come home. 

The doorbell rang and I stopped pacing, confused as to who it could be I opened the door and felt like I couldn't breathe. 

Jin was standing there in a black button down shirt, black slacks, and black shiny shoes, his hair was parted to the side perfectly and he had a bouquet of flowers in his hand, he smiled at me as he handed me the flowers "these are for you"
"Thank you" I smiled "they're beautiful" 
"Your welcome" 
"Why did you ring the doorbell?" I laughed, making him laugh 
"I figured I should try to do it right since this is our first date, so that includes flowers and picking you up" 
"First?" I raised my eyebrow but kept my smile on my face making him smile even wider as he put his head down and nodded 
"Yes, first" 
"Would you like to come in?" I played along as I opened the door for him 
"Sure, thank you" he looked around the living room like he had never seen it before "wow, you have a beautiful house! It looks so cozy" he smiled 
"Thanks! My roommate cleaned the living room this morning"
"That was really nice of him" he chuckled 
"Yeah, he's a nice guy" I smiled as I put the flowers in a vase with water and sat them on the table "shall we?"
"Yes" he smiled as he grabbed my hand and we walked outside, he opened the door for me and shut it once I was seated, he walked around and got in behind the steering wheel. 

He held my hand the entire drive to the restaurant.

I loved every second of it. 

It felt nice. 

At dinner we talked the whole way through as we ate and stuffed our faces with delicious food. Taking a look at the prices on the menu, I couldn't believe he had brought me here. I tried to ignore it the entire time we ate, but I felt bad that he really was going all out for this date, I know he struggles with money, and honestly, I would have been just as happy sitting in a McDonald's parking lot eating together with the radio on. When we were both done eating the server brought us our check, Jin didn't flinch at the cost and slid his card into the book for the server to take, once we were paid for and the tip left on the table we walked out of the restaurant hand in hand still carrying on our conversation as our fingers intertwined and he lead me down the sidewalk. 

We stood by the river as we continued to talk and laugh, he walked away to get us each an ice cream cone and we sat on the ledge of the bridge with our feet dangling as we ate and got to know each other on a deeper level than we had before. 

It was hands down the best date I had ever had. 

"Thank you for everything tonight" I said as we stared at the water 
"Of course" he smiled "thank you for coming" 
"Next time though, we don't have to go all out. We can just get fast food and chill" 
He laughed at me " I'll be honest, I figured you would like that a lot more than the fancy restaurant, and that was my plan. But then you told me you hadn't been on a date in so long, I wanted to give you the best first date with anyone, and treat you how you deserve to be treated" 

I swooned. 
How is he so thoughtful? 

"I appreciate it Jin" I smiled and rested my head on his shoulder as a comfortable silence fell over us. The only thing we could hear were the waves underneath us. We stayed like that for a few minutes before Jin started chuckling to himself
"What's so funny?" I asked as I lifted my head to look at him 
"You said 'next time' that means I get a second date" he beamed 

I laughed at his excitement 

"Yes, I would love a second date if you'll have me" 
"I would love to have you" he joked with a wink making me laugh as I playfully smacked his chest 
"Pervert!" I laughed 
"Me? I didn't say anything!" He laughed even harder as I got up and started jogging back to the car "Yumi! Hey!" He whined as he stood up and chased after me, we were both laughing as we ran towards the car. Eventually he caught up to me and wrapped his arms around me from behind picking me up off my feet 
"Jin!" I squealed making him laugh as he carried me the rest of the way to the car.
He put me on my feet by the car and I turned around to smack his chest again but he cupped my face with both hands and caught me off guard with a very soft and deep kiss.
It took a second for me to respond, but eventually, before he pulled away, I closed my eyes and placed my hands over his as I returned the kiss just as passionately. I hadn't been kissed in so long, I didn't realize how much I had missed intimate physical contact and I couldn't control the butterflies taking over my body or the feeling of lust sweeping through my system. When he deepened the kiss and gained access to my mouth with his tongue I accidentally let out an embarrassingly whiny moan and wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him in closer as he moved his hands from my face down to my hips, he pushed against my back and brought our chests closer together as our tongues danced together, once my hands were in his hair and tugging lightly on the roots he let out allow maon making me shiver as he pulled away from me, we were both breathing heavily as we tried to catch our breath, he gave me one last peck on the lips before he smiled 
"Thank you" he said in a husky voice making me smile 
"Thank you" I whispered back and tiptoed to kiss his lips once more. 

They felt so much better than I had imagined. 

He opened my door for me and shut it once I sat down, he got in the car and ran his hand through his hair as he took a deep breath and shook his head before he started the car. 

We drove home in silence. 

Before we turned on to our street, I spoke up quietly "Are you okay? Did I do something wrong?" 
He brought the car to a stop on the side of the road and put it in park. We were only a few feet away from my driveway which left me even more confused and more self conscious about what had just happened. 

"You did absolutely nothing wrong" he smiled "I'm just overwhelmed" he ran his fingers through his hair again
"I just, I really like you Yumi. Since the moment I saw you, you took my breath away, and every day since then I find myself thinking more and more about it, I even thought about what Yoongi would say if he found out I liked his sister? And then there's Ellie, and everything that could go wrong. And then, you agreed to come out with me, and I was so fucking excited and happy" he smiled
"and everything I was worried about completely disappeared. And then, we kissed. And suddenly..I just..I didn't want to stop. I had to force myself to pull away from you, I want you to be comfortable with me. I want this to eventually become more, but I don't ever want to make you feel obligated to go out, to kiss me, to entertain my feelings. I thought..well what if she's only doing this because she thinks I'll resent her if she doesn't? And it isn't like that at all. I won't resent you if you tell me this isn't what you want. That you don't look at me the way I look at you. We've been living together peacefully for two months, and we can go back to that with no problem and pretend this date, and that kiss never even happened" he stared down at his fingers while he played with the steering wheel. 

"Jin? Are you done?" 
"I..I think so" he frowned 

I took my seat belt off, leaned over the center console, grabbed his face, and pushed my lips to his.