Loosen Up, Black!

He'll Always be a Prick

*My Girlies (Fair WARNING some mildly major feels and dramatic mood changes)*

"No, That Bastard!" I screamed staring down as I watched Lily and James' son, Harry, whom I never got to meet, and his friends Ronald Weasley and Hermione Granger. 

"What? What is it" asked Lily jumping up next to me.

"Him" I pointed at Peter as he shifted back into a rat and took off, leaving Severus Slimy Snape, and Sirius to defend the children from poor Remy who forgot it was a full moon.

"I know honey, I know." Lily patted my back.

"He betrayed us, Lily, all of us! And- and now he's gonna ruin Harry's life and he- argh! Why couldn't we just have normal lives," I cried, "I wanna still be alive I wanna have my own children, I wanna see my kids off to Hogwarts with Harry, I want to be happy with Sirius again"

"I know, we just weren't lucky, and you got the worst ending possible"

"What's going on?"

"Shut up James and figure out for yourself!" I snapped.

"Marlene Jean McKinnon I know you're upset but that is no way to talk to us!" Lily reprimanded me.

"I really don't care!" I hate that I died, I hate that I couldn't warn my friends, I HATE THAT I'M NOW STUCK HERE IN THIS PERFECT PLACE WATCHING MY BEST FRIENDS' SON AND MY SUPPOSED TO BE HUSBAND DODGE THEIR OWN DEATHS! I storm away from Lily and James and sit in the back of the room in the huge house we share here in heaven. Lily joins me and I curl up into her side as I used to when we were younger...and alive. We sit in silence me cuddled close and her with her arm wrapped protectively around me.

"Lily when did you really start like James? Like for real not stupid childish stuff like you didn't like him because he was an insufferable toerag"

"Marly, I've alread-"

"No, I want the real answer you told me you liked him not when you started having feelings for him"

She sighed, "5th year, that's when it started, I knew I liked him for sure in 6th year when I told you, once he stopped being a prick" she emphasized.

"He never stopped being a prick" I groaned.

"An intolerable level of prick" Lil explained.

"He was and will always be a prick, he stole my best friend" I complained snuggling closer to her like a grumpy child.

"I have space in my life for both of you. My life and my heart, I should say" she hugged my close.

"Take that James! Also, him fucking you and making Harry was the reason you guys died so that's not really the best husbandy thing in the world" I rolled my eyes.

"Well I'd rather die having started a wonderful family than live without my son and husband at all" I froze and I felt Lily tense after she heard her own words and felt my body go rigid.

"So you'd rather not die," I sucked in a shaky breath, "like..........me?"

"You had Sirius- not with you, but you were together and he was gonna propose"

"I didn't know that at the time"

"I know you didn't, and I'm sorry your fairytale had one of the worst endings"

"Lily, I wanted to marry him"

"I know, bb, I know"

"Why did I have to die? Why didn't I listen to you guys and not go? Why didn't I try harder? Why didn't I apparate away when I had the chance?" I had started crying.

"Mars"

"Perhaps if I did we'd all be alive right now"

"Marl, there was nothing you could do, you couldn't have done any better, you were right to go with your family, you were brave not to leave your brother or who you thought was your friend."

"Girls...." James interrupted tears in his own eyes, "we have a problem."

"What is it," asked Lily not letting go of me.

"Sirius has been caught and sentenced to a dementor's kiss"

"what?" I barely managed a whisper. I could feel the color draining from my face as I hurried to were we watch those still living.

"no no no no no no no no" I repeated nervously many times over as I watched Sirius sit in the cell they put him in.

"Wait, Mars Bars, look" Lily pointed down and I gasped. Harry and His gal-friend Hermione were in two places at once!

"Time Turner" muttered Lily in awe. They were saving Sirius and a Hippogriff!! 

"I have a whole new level of love and respect for your son" I looked over at Lil.

"Hey, he's my son too!"

"James, he was your son when he flew a car to school" huffed Lily.

"I don't know, Lil, that kinda screamed drunk girls' night" I reasoned.

"No that screamed sober James and Sirius and severely drunk you and Dorcas"

"Heyyyy" James and I both responded offendedly, in sync. We then turned and looked at each other with stupid grins on our faces proud that we had responded so perfectly.

"You two never grew up!"

"You're right I died at what 17? 18? One of the two."

"18, doll" Lily anwsered.

"Yup then I watched you guys die, watched the bastard get away, obsevered 12 years of my, still living, boyfriend's misfortune in Azkaban, and watched your son avoid death and get abused...many times in many different ways. Merlin, my death's been almost as sad and depressing and evetful as my life was!"

"And this is why we don't bring this up" James shook his head. I thouhgt back trying to remember all the good parts of my life. For example, abmitting to Lil I'd fallen for Sirius, or meeting little innocent Regulus; who's currently at his own house probably watching his brother;, or maybe all the times Sirius and I stared at the stars from the atronomy tower, or perhaps all the girls' nights. I love all the good memories I can still dig up but slowly they are fading away and I'm afraid I'll lose them foreverand be stuck with the awful memories that are still vivid and fresh in my mind, but I know I will always have my friends, the ones who didn't leave me then and won't leave me now, they never will. 

"I haven't seen you smile in decades" laughed James elbowing me in the side causing Lil to roll her eyes and me to retaliate by playfully punch his arm.

"See?!" I turned to Lily gesturing at her crazy husband, "He'll always be a prick!"