Your Lie That Night (Iwaoi)

part 11 ~ iwaizumi

On his funeral, i didnt stand with everyone and look at him get lowered down into his grave. I sat far away from everyone under a sakura tree that was far enough for me to not be one of those people but it was enough for me to say "i came to your funeral."

A few people came to talk to me and asked me how i was doing, i wanted to yell out to them "It sucks. It is sad. It is lonely. It is heartbreaking. It is life-changing. It is painful. It is tragic. It is pathetic. It is devastating. It is depressing... It is just so damn bad." But in the end i would just nod.

I rested my head onto the tree and flashbacked our times together.

you were my sunshine, the one for whom I lit from the inside. I used to feel a frisson of love even if my thoughts turned your way for only a moment. The image of your face conjured my smile. I would yearn to dive into your eyes. I would have done anything you asked, given you whatever you wished for.

Tears filled the brim of eyes and were about to spill when a single sakura petal fell on my lips. It felt soft and somehow it's warmth felt familiar. Then his words came back to me. "I will reincarnate. Reincarnate in to the most beautiful sakura tree. And then i would feel the happiest i could ever be."
I smiled. Because afterall i could only smile at my loved one.
"I love you too, tooru."