I couldn't say it then, but I can now.

Chapter 1

Hajime Iwaizumi is in love with his best friend. He loves his best friend Toorū Oikawa so much it makes him sick. He tried and tried for years on end to ignore it but to no avail. 

How could he just ignore the way Oikawa's hair moved when he ran in that way he only runs when he's extra excited about something? How could he just ignore the way his eyes sparkled and changed, color in the sunlight as if they were beautiful marbles? How could he just ignore the way Oikawa always sat with his legs crossed unless he was anxious or upset? How could he ignore Toorū Oikawa? 

The answer was he couldn't. 

Not with Oikawa running to him every time something was wrong, or whenever he aced a test, or whenever he wanted someone to tease. Not with Oikawa spending every possible moment with him. 

Despite this no matter how many times he told Oikawa everything he did was annoying or that he was too clingy Iwaizumi wouldn't change a thing.

 Not for the world.

 He secretly loved that he was the one that Oikawa spent every second possible with. He secretly loved that he was the one Oikawa trusted with his problems. He secretly loved how he was the first one to hear that Oikawa aced his last test. He secretly loved how he was the one that Oikawa always annoyed the crap out of. Not that he ever thought that he would admit it. No matter how many times Iwaizumi wanted to tell Oikawa how much he meant to him. No matter how many times he wanted to tell Oikawa how much he loves him he won't. He won't because saying as much would mean having to risk losing everything he's loved so much all these years. And those stakes we're just too high for Hajime Iwaizumi. 

Even though his stomach did backflips and his heart skipped a beat (as it does in romance manga) every time Oikawa "jokingly" told him how attractive he was or how much he loved him he tried his hardest to keep his mouth shut. 

So, he ignores the urge to say it three times. 

But the fourth he just can't resist.

(A/N: Here's chapter 1 of my Iwaoi fic. This updates on Thursdays on Ao3 but Sundays on here so my schedules don't clash so if you want to read this early then go on over to my Ao3 (it's the same user name as on here I use the same one for everything). This will be pretty short it'll only be 6 chapters but the chapters will be long so hopefully, you'll stick around because there is some plot and I worked hard to plan this.)