This October

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I came home from a long day at quarry with Richie,Bev,Stan,Mike,Bill and Ben. I was exhausted after running round telling Bev not to smoke as it's bad for her lungs. I swam for a bit but I was still tired. Richie has spent the whole day arguing with me about one sentence Stan had said.

I fell asleep wondering what if we had moved. I wouldn't get to enjoy more time with the losers. When, my mommy walked in "Eddie bear have you had your medication, you know what happens when you don't" she said in her slow voice. "Yes mommy!" I exclaimed. Placebos are the worst they nothing for me but if I don't have them my mommy would go mad. She'd put me on more medication.
"Also Eddie bear, no sleeping out of schedule, okay my love" in the same voice she would use if I was a mental illness.

Richie would always tell me how i should just really piss her off and swear at her and spi-ugh I had to write that as every time I do say it I gag. What a disgusting thing to do. Anyway I could never.

This was my life at home and if I had one wish it would be to run. Far away from Derry.