a kiss on the wrist

Chapter 27-still here

A/n so um this chapter holds a lot of past in it, and i cried while writing this. I hope you guys are enjoying the book. I might get ready to end it soon or i might continue it. Still undecided about it. Thank you all for being such amazing readers i love you all and can't thank you enough for everything. Xx Auzhieah
This chapter is also dedicated to _Maria_Malik_Mahone_ inspirationfor1D and kaci_kime after all this happened they were of great help and support. I love them. Thank you.

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I'm still here. I repeated in my mind. I was holding on by a strand of hope. A very thin strand at that. Hope that i would get through this. All of this. My cuts hurt like hell but i pushed through. Eventually i had to go back to the hospital. They hooked me back up to the wires and the tubes and continued with my medications. Niall never left. He stayed in that room everyday, all day. Everyday we would play games and listen to music and just hang out in my room while i recovered and was able to go back to life.

Today was my last day. Two weeks in the hospital and I'm finally out.

"Are you excited?" Niall asked as he placed down a blue 7. "Damn you niall," i laughed as i threw my uno cards down. "And yeah i am" i said giving him a weak smile. I had become pale and boney. Pretty soon i would gain the weight back but right now i looked pretty much like a drug addict if not worse. "When we get out if here the first place I'm taking you is a fast food restaurant! I swear you'd think the hospital wasn't feeding you!" He laughed placing his hand on my knee. "They do just not enough ." I replied placing my hand over his.

Niall and i have almost gone back to us. The way we were before. Harry and zayn are doing great and expect to see me today. Our friendship is somewhat fixed, but still working on it. Kassie has come everyday too along with Mari and sofie. I've gotten a lot of cards and flowers. Mari has been a very huge helper. Without her who knows where I'd be. She defiantly helped repair my friendship with zayn and harry. I've heard that Mari and zayn have been spending a lot of time together and have been meaning to ask her about that but haven't gotten around to it.

Summer is almost over and school will be starting again. Niall wants to switch over so we can spend senior year together. I'm not sure about that, but it would be nice.

"Robin?" Niall laughed grabbing my face between his hands. Squishing my cheek skin. "You like zoned out again," he smiled kissing the tip of my nose. "I was thinking," i shrugged grabbing his warm soft hand. "About ?" He asked pushing some hair away from my forehead with his other hand. "Everything." I smiled looking at him. He grinned and took his hand from my own and placed it on my cheek. "Your astounding robin," he whispered kissing my forehead and slipping his hands around my waist as the door opened.

"Miss.conners are you ready?" The doctors asked handing me some clothes. I nodded my head as he unplugged my i.v's and left the room. "Turn around," i instructed niall as he smirked at me. He's seen me naked but right now like i said my body is boney and unappealing. I look like Bella in breaking dawn part one except like minus the vampire baby. "Turn around so i can change!" I lauded pushing him around. He covered his eyes and turned around.

I stripped my gown and slipped on a bra and underwear. Looking at myself in the mirror was weird because i havnt seen myself this skinny in a long time. I looked at the ground and bit my lip. Discomforted by what my reflection displayed. I felt two warm arms wrap around my waist and securely lock themselves in place.

"Robin your beautiful, believe it." Niall whispered into my ear. I looked up and observed my still healing cuts and shook my head. "I love you" he spoke. "And i love you," i smiled, turning around and gently kissing him before clothing myself entirely.

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(A/n for dramatic affect i was listening to the greatest by cat power. The video is attached at the begging and i love that sing so much so if you want the feeling listen to it while you read on)

"Uh miss. Conners your parents are here," the doctor told me, stopping me dead. Everything was going so great.

"Robin, are you ready to go?" My father asked me with gentleness in his voice for once. "I'm not going anywhere with you," i replied standing next to niall. "Robin your not going with us, your going with them," Stephanie pointed out the two men standing by an ambulance.

"Why would I be going with them?" I laughed. "There here to take you to Acadia." She replied. "Wait i just got out if the hospital why do i need to go to Acadia?" I asked stepping back.

Acadia is a suicide house. I've seen people go there, they send you there when your suicidal or get into too much trouble.

"Robin you just got out if the hospital for attempting suicide, you need help and you need it now, so just go with them. We don't have a choice you were committed by the state, we have no power over this" My father said sternly. I turned towards niall and grabbed his hands. "Niall i don't wanna go," i cried. Niall's face was blank. He didn't move or say anything. He only looked at me blinked his eyes.

"Miss.conner we have to go now." The two men told me, reaching for my arms. I pulled back and forced out of their grip, only to get caught again and held down. "Sedate her." The doctor ordered as i fought to get out of their grip. Niall's face changed now. His hands were reaching for me and finally the found me as the nurses stuck the needle into my skin. "It's ok robin your going to be ok," he told me as he held me. His tears were hot against my cold skin and his hand stroked my head. I couldn't see him for the tears blocked my view.

"Niall please don't let them take me," i cried as they started to pull me away. Our hands were the only thing connected now, and once again he was taken away from me as the pulled us apart. I felt myself getting weaker as they strapped me into the stretcher. I was strapped down from head to toe. My hand was barely free and i reached it out the best i could as i tried to get niall. He ran to me and touched my face.

"I'm sorry robin I'm so sorry," he sobbed as they loaded me into the ambulance. "Robin!" Niall yelled as they closed to door and pulled him away. I felt the ambulance start to move and little by little i watched niall get smaller and smaller until i could not see him anymore. The last image i had of him was him on his knees in the street crying.

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So like i said this chapter was very hard for me to write and i had trouble even going through this in my mind again. This is why the chapter is so short and a little crappy. Of course i added a bit to it, but this was basically an idea of a part of my story. I didn't get sedated but the rest if it was pretty close. I remember feeling like every ounce of muscle in my body just gave up on me and left me helpless on the floor. I hope you guys liked this. Don't forget to comment, like or vote thanks guys xxx :)