The Diva

Chapter 1

Her mother stood there, tears fighting the want to escape from her beautiful brown eyes similar to Sana's. Sana was super close to her mother after everything they have been through, the up’s and downs. Nothing tore them apart. Sana was a mommies girl and she knew that leaving for college was just going to put a being hole in both of their hearts. Sana hated seeing her mother cry and would do anything to prevent the tears from escaping, but she knew she can’t just stay and help her mother with everything, even her mother knew that she needed to be independent.

She wanted to stay, she told her mother that she could do online courses and everything would be fine and that she would be still there. Her mother didn’t want that. So, Sana introduced a community college nearby and her mother refused that, she wanted the best for Sana after everything they gone through and now that everything was finally starting to stop shaking like an earthquake, her mother was going to do everything in her power to keep Sana happy and if going to a university for the talented is what she wanted do, she was going to do that.

Sana recently got accepted in a University in Seoul, South Korea for the Art program. She sent in a video of her singing with her guitar because you not just have to have a good GPA score but also a reasoning behind going there, and singing for Sana was one major one. She didn’t hear back from the University till a month later with an acceptance letter and her family which included her mother, and her little sister. They attempted to make a chocolate cake but failed because their stove was still cheap and wouldn’t cook properly but Sana made do with ordering a cake from a nearby bakery store.

Ever since their father left them behind, money was always an issue for her family, Sana worked many part time jobs to help out but she noticed that being away from her family was much worse than not having money. After her mother and her fathers biggest fight they ever had, whilst Sana and Sora were upstairs, experiencing the whole fight for themselves. He stole half of their savings, all their treasured items and just left. Sana was not sure of his whereabouts but her anger blocked her from caring further about his absence. He was a terrible father, always reminding Sora what a mistake she was when he was either drunk off his arse, high off whatever drug he had that day. Sana was old enough to not let that kind of stuff get to her because she knew it wasn’t true. But, she couldn’t help but cry at midnight when no one knew.

Ever since then she vowed to never leave her family like her father did, she wanted to bring back the life they once had, the light that flamed within them. But, nothing was working. All things that were bad was happening to them. When her father left, Sana's mother found out the numerous women her father has been hooking up with, even worse, the women were Sana's mothers close friends. She dumped all of her friends, leaving her with only one good friend. Now, Sana's mother, which her name was Thelma, was alone with just one friend and her daughters to keep her on her feet.

Life at high school wasn’t easier on Sana's part either. She only had one friend and her name was Nayeon which her mother was the only good friend that stayed with Sana's mother.

Ever since the fall out of her father, word got around that Sana was addicted to some type of drug and the nickname “Druggie” was used upon her, even though she dispised drugs, she was called a druggie for more than a year till it stopped because people were doing it as well but, she didn’t say anything to them because unlike anyone else, Sana had a heart.

She was in her now empty bedroom, a stomach full of butterflies and a head full of ideas. What was her dorm going to look like? She already has enough ideas to make it look nice, or at least, attempt to make it look nic. Sana wasn’t bratty and refused to let her mother pay for new things, she used a lot of what she used to have in her bedroom and was confused about why people needed to buy new things to make a dorm when you can just use your own things.

She pondered over her roommate, what kind of person would she be? Would she enjoy studies as much as Sana does? Would she even like her?

The thing about Sana is, she worries too much about what people think of her. She was always thinks first of what someone would say about her outfit, her drawings, her hair, make up which she hardly puts on anyways because she is scared someone would judge her for it. She let those things get the best of her, she knew she shouldn’t do that but, she allows it to happen to herself. Ever since her father left, well, ever since he was here she grew insecure. Whenever her father was drunk or not he would remind her how ugly she was. She knew it was over top for someone that helped made her who she is, if anything, he was part of the reason why Sana was “Ugly” because she was half of him.

Sana stared at herself in the bathroom mirror, she then gazed upon the numerous of things that planted against the sink like Sora's Dora the Explora tooth brush, Thelma's tooth brush and just clutters of black and colored hairbands everywhere with pieces of hair particles lodged in them. Absentmindly Sana ran her timid fingers through her hair and she knew she was stalling. Was she ready to leave the house she grew up in and leave the family she vowed to stay with forever? Was she even ready to move so far way from them that it would take a plane to ever come back and see them again?

“Sana!” shouted her mouth from the living room. Sana stumbled a bit, knocking over a empty shampoo bottle that was near her elbow, causing a noise that gave her a period to think about what she was about to say “I’m coming! Just making sure I got everything from the bathroom!” She lied, obviously not wanting to tell her mother her doubts that sprawled into her brain.

Sana bent and took the empty shampoo bottle that should have been thrown away; into the garage dispel near the cabinet and left the bathroom without another thought, allowing her feet to make her move. After one clear swipe of her room to make sure she got everything which was just another excuse of stalling, Sana was standing in the living room, taking in the family living room one last time whilst Sora clung against her leg. She was probably going to be the easiest to say bye to. Sana bent down again, taking Sora within her arms and saying “I love you Sor-Sora” Sana patted her thick and soft hair with her fingers which were still shaking a bit from her nerves. She stayed like that for a minute before standing up and turning to face her mother, she knew that her mother was going to be the hardest to say bye to. Sana could see a wave of flashbacks against her mother’s eyes, as if a movie was playing to explain to Sana that she shouldn’t go.

No. Sana thought They’ll be fine. I’ll Skype with them every night to be sure of it.

Sana smiled and brought her shaking mother in her arms, she knew by leaving would only give her mother a limited of resources to go to if she ever had her nightmares. Sana had her own fair share of nightmares but nothing was worse as her mother, she just hopes it doesn’t scare Sora into having her own soon one day.

Sana pulled back, she stroked her mothers hair so she could see her face which her cheeks were stained with warm tears and Sana gently sighs “I love you mom, forever, okay?”

Her mother looks up to see her daughter trying to confront her and at that moment, Sana was worried she was going to burst into tears again. 

Instead, she said “This is faith, Nana, it’s calling for you, it’s now time for you to answer.”