Finding Yourself [TodoDkeu x Reader story]

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"The loneliest moment in someone's life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly."
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{A/N} Warning: there are self-harm/suicidal thoughts. So if you are sensitive to that please just wait for the next chapter.
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{3rd Person POV}

You don't know how long it had been since you've fallen to the floor in devastation. 'Is this what my life has come too?' Is what you thought. You don't remember what it was that started his distaste for you. You try to think back to what you could have done to have him love you but there was nothing that came to mind. All of your life you have been there for him through everything. Even when he was going through this tough time when he thought no one would be there for him. You were is rock, his stone, and what you thought was the love of his life. And now he has someone better and they are going to have a child. Something you wanted with him for the first day he was yours.

The numbness growing inside your heart was hurting more than you would like and all you wanted was make it stop. Your mind started to go blank as you got up off your knees and started walking to the bathroom. You got in and stood in front of the sink to look at yourself in the mirror. With puffy and hazy eyes you could barely tell it was you in there.

Opening the medicine cabinet behind the mirror. You started searching for something. Until you found what you were looking for. Garbing the little sharp piece of a razor, you pointed it your arm debating if this was the right choice. You started to think back to all of the time when Bakugo would degrade you and put you down when you never did anything wrong. During your thought, you have already sliced four slits into your arm. The blood dripping from your arm down to the rug, soiling it with your blood.

As you continued to do the other arm since you ran out of spaces on the other one. The world around you starts to fade. Your vision slowly starts to become black, like the darkness is taking over your sight and swallowing you whole and the last thing you remember is hearing someone call your name before everything got quiet.

You slowly start to come to when you feel yourself laying down on a dog yet firm surface. You assume it a bed and that your in a hospital by the sound of a heart monitor going off. Slowly opening your eyes you are filled with a bright light that's really blinding that you have to blink to adjust to the brightness. Finally open your eyes you see that your assumption is correct and that you are in a hospital, laying on a bed with a needle in your arm.

You try to move your body but you feel both arms being held down by something heavy. You look to your left only to see green fluff in your field of view. Looking at it really you realize it's Izuku on you. Looking at him laying on your arm sends flutters through your body but you push them aside cause you know better. But as you continue to admire the cuteness that is Midoriya you feel shuffling on the other side of you then you hear someone speak.

"So do you want to explain yourself for what you did or do you want to apologize to everyone you worried half to death?" The voice was stern yet gentle like they were also asking if you were ok but also trying to get you to confess your most inner secrets.

You don't really say anything, memories of what happened before you woke up here flooded back into your mind and you freeze in place. The silence was enough for Todoroki to know that you weren't really ready to talk about it but what you didn't know is that he had gone through your phone for any evidence to why you were in the state you were in while you being taken to the hospital after Midoriya called him to hurry home. And he read all of the messages you had read recently. But what he wanted to know is the reasoning behind what you did. He wanted you to tell him for yourself and for you to let out whatever pain you were feeling when you were in the process of harming yourself.

He also knew that you needed time and not for someone to just start interrogating you. So while you were in your mind debating to tell him or not you feel a pair of arms wrap around your shoulders, pulling yours into a firm chest.

"You don't have to tell me now. You can tell me when you ready but just know that I and Midoriya will be here when you are ready ok?"

Laying your head more into his chest you let out a soft and quiet sob. While you quietly sobbing you feel another pair of arms wrap around you and another voice say.

"Yeah Todoroki is right you don't have to tell us now but that doesn't mean we won't be here for you ok y/n?"

You don't say anything but nod and start to cry more into their arms. Knowing that eventually, you will have to tell them but for now, you will just enjoy the feeling of not being alone for once.