My Guardian Angel (Angel!Link x Religious!Reader Oneshots) PART 2

Trick Or Treat?

Your POV

Today is a Halloween holiday and thank God...what a weekend. I loved to watch all the trees have changed colors. And of course, it's an autumn season. It relaxes me whenever I get droopy or feel sorry for myself. It sure is a relief.

However, what I really hate about the terrifying images that scare the crap out of me. Like the ones in a horror movie; it makes me want to throw up, having an uncomfortable stomach ache or nightmares ever since when I was a kid. Was it just a hallucination?

I can't stand the blood-curdling screams any longer. The monsters, the creepy dark music playing in the background. It totally made my ears bleed really bad and sweat, shivers down to my spine. It also freaked my heart out.

I thought those things are so realistic to my thoughts. What's the point? Still, it gives a lot of nightmare fuel rather than an emotional rollercoaster. Why do I get the nerve to make things right? It scares me thousand times.

I have all these bad dreams lately...it gets even worse. Why Halloween is going to be very scary at times these parts? I don't know why. I am timid, phobic to horror stuff or masks...like a voodoo doll. I was traumatized by those terrifying encounters.

Halloween masks that sure scares me to death. Even though when I have a fear of a spooky holiday....I become weak in the knees and my body went numb. I don't want to face my fears. I'm afraid of them! I'm just too timid...

I let myself down, keep on bottled up my negative emotions. I don't feel being satisfied and all. All I did is spend time play videogames, relax on a weekend or drawings. Despite the fact that I have general anxiety disorder.

Which it meant by a phobic type of symptom, increase amount of stress or depression. Lack of social skills because I can't fit in with people anyway. Other examples like traumatic experiences, temper tantrum...I couldn't handle to fight back all the inner demons inside me. I can feel my temples turned cold like I was frozen.

I'm in a happy mood for a holiday. I hate monsters who haunts my dreams. I feel trapped and caged inside, unable to escape these tight chains...imagine if there's my personal flurry on top of my head, a cloud that resembles the mixed emotions I've felt.

Like rain for sadness, thunderstorm for anger, snowflakes for sympathy...etc. It doesn't feel right at all. I'm always in a bad mood, so alone. Why do I deserve this pain? I have nobody here with me when my life turned upside-down.

What am I going to do? I don't feel motivated today. Maybe a pumpkin of treats couldn't hurt. While I'm in my room, draw some emo sketches that represents my fears or my anxiety issues. I never told anyone why I have seasonal depression.

I get sad all the time. But I love the cool fresh air of autumn. It brings memories and tears in my eyes. For instance, I don't mind myself being caught in a cold. I'm beginning to like it. I watched the kids having fun trick-or-treating with their families.

The decorations, pumpkins, costumes, masks...etc. I sighed desperately at the sight. As I teenager, I become suffered an extreme fear, panic and fright. It loses my mind, loud screams ringing in my ears. Still, it hurts.

In a time like this, being alone on a holiday or weekend helps me relieve my stress. While I was sketching, I felt a cold breeze pass through the window causing me to shudder. This is going to be a long season. I lightly groaned in content...good grief.

I am hopeless to spend on a holiday. I then put on headphones, listening to chillstep music to put me in ease. It's like a song of healing....it cures my struggles when I feel isolated all the time. I am grief-stricken.

I glanced at the window to see nobody is around to go outside. Now where did everyone go? I have no idea. The street is empty....but only there are many dried leaves scattered on the ground as wind creating its small whirlwinds over it. That's very odd.