Dazzled after Dark

Prologue

I live my life with bitterness.

From the beginning, i never did ask for betterment.

My mother died after giving me birth, I don't have any sibblings, so i live with my father, not as his daughter but his slave.

My father never treated me like his own daughter.

My friends betrayed me, leaving me in shallows, treated me like a laughingstock.

There's no difference between my father and my friends

My miserableness won't stop, i almost killed myself from that.

I thought all my dark past will be always on the past, but this guy dug it all, he seems liking it, he's making fun of me, satisfy with my weakness state.

I've noticed he's getting weirder in these past months, hindi na niya ako
iniinis, inaasar, at pinagtatawanan.

"I like you"i gasped and look at him straight in the eyes,i see no lies in it, but i shook my head, instead of falling on his traps, I sarcastically laugh.

Dwaine's confession is confusing, I doubt he's just playing around again

"I don't like you"

I promised to myself, I won't be that weak and laughingstock, I won't be that unwanted daughter, and i won't be that depressed and anxious Jassi anymore.

I already forgotten my old self, and I won't let anyone destroy my being, not even Dwaine Phimennor and his shits, or any single cell and soul

"Jassi, what should i do? You keep on making me fall harder."

"Jassi pansinin mo na ko"

"Jassi those guys are hitting on you, should i punch them?"

"Nagseselos ako, suyuin mo naman ako"

"Kailan mo ba ko papansinin? Jassi naman eh"

I stared at Dwaine, with begging eyes.
Please not now Dwaine, please not now, when I'm grieving

"Please stop, utang na loob Mr. Glanza, magseryuso ka sa buhay mo, hindi na tayo mga bata, nananahimik ako dito, 'wag mo namang guluhin ang buhay ko, p-please kahit ngayon lang, 'wag mo muna—"

hindi ko natuloy ang sasabihin ko dahil nilapat niya ang malambot niyang labi sa akin, a tear escape from my eye, after all those years ngayon lang ulit ako lumuha..

Tinulak ko siya at tumalikod sa kaniya, kasabay ng pagtalikod ko ay naramdaman ko ang mga kamay nakayapos sakin mura sa likuran.

"Baby I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Please forgive me"

"W-wala na si papa, ngayon pang okay na ang l-lahat"sabay sabay na nagsituluan ang mga masagana kong luha

"I'm sorry,I'm sorry hindi ko alam, I'm sorry. I love you, i love you"

Hindi ko alam na ganto pala ang kahahantungan ng lahat, hindi ko alam na sa bawat kadiliman ay may uusbong palang liwanag

At Nahanap ko ang liwanag na iyon sa lalaking kinamumuhian at kinaaayawan ko sa lahat.