[ESCAPING THE PAIN] - ORIGINAL ONESHOT

[ESCAPING THE PAIN]

[YOU FOUND ME - THE FRAY]

I found God on the corner of First in Amistad
Where the west was all but won
All alone
Smoking his last cigarette
I said where you been?
He said, ask anything

Drenched and cold, I'm standing here on the lonely street of manchester. The chilling, heavy rain drops melding with my hot tears giving me a sense of solace that nobody can notice my misery. I'm all alone, nobody is around me but I can still feel them, laughing menacingly at me as they tear me apart with there words.

They don't like me, never did. They say I don't deserve to exist in this beautiful world. I always wonder why I never found it beautiful, all I see is a globe full of cruel people but then I realise, maybe this is why I don't deserve it.

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Spent by the telephone
That never rang
And all I needed was a call
That never came
From the corner of First and Amistad

My family abandoned me. Told me that I'm a disgrace. I remember how they forget my birthday every year and I am okay with it. Why should we celebrate the day I was born. Just another burden, aren't I?

I don't have any friends and I guess I know why. I'm fat, ugly, a fag, and a disgrace. Nobody would want to be friends with a disgrace and a pathetic loser like me.

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

The rain doesn't seem to stop, neither does my tears. It feels good though. It feels good on my arms that's shattered and shredded into slices. My sleeves are red, blood dripping down my arms bringing a smile on my face.

I find a corner on the street, hidden away from the beautiful world in my own little dark corner.
The sky is getting darker and darker as I slice the skin on my arm pouring out dark red fluid.

In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not, and who I wanna be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me

With every cut, I remember the words I deserve-
"Ugly"
"Fat"
"Fag"
"Disgrace"
"You should die"
"Go to hell"
"You deserve to die"
"Ugly"
"Fag"

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

It's time for me to leave the beautiful world, I shouldn't bring anymore darkness. Nobody will care, they won't look for me. I won't be a disgrace anymore, I won't be a burden anymore. I'll lose my existence.

Tear drops and blood drops drip down as I watch them for the final time and I slip into oblivion forever.

Early morning
City breaks
I've been calling
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never send me no letters
You got some kind of nerve
Taking all I want

Next morning -

"The poor boy committed suicide." Said one of the many people present at the site of death.

A pale boy laid there dead and cold, drenched in water and his own blood that seeped out of his arms.

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Where were you? Where were you?

A funeral was held the next day for the poor boy. His mother was crying as his father consoled her as if they just lost their dearest son. His siblings stood there looking emotionless as if his death affected them.

A few students stood there wearing black shedding tears as if they just lost their best friend.

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

It was still gloomy, cold and cloudy weather but the rain has seemed to stop for the boy's tears are not there to reunite with them.

But this is not the end, tomorrow another person will shed their tear in the heavy rain as they decide to escape their pain once and forever.

Why'd you have to wait
To find me?
To find me?

[THE END]