forest fire (lumity and boschlow)

prologue: tonight's the night

boscha's p.o.v

as i walked up to the owl house i wondered if i should really go through with this. should i destroy the portal between the boiling isles and the human realm. i felt no sympathy for amity, luz or the owl lady,but i know willow likes them alot. it would make them devastated if their  friends were  hurt. she cares to much for them. i wish she would care for me that way

i don't know what it is about her but she's the one person i've ever liked. i've never had any real friends. my parents only care about how successful i am. no one's ever loved me and i never loved anyone either. until i found willow. it was in kindergarten when we met. i remember what happened.

i was being picked on by some bullies when willow came over to us. she told them to back off. when they said no she pushed one of them and grabbed my hand. then we ran off. we hid in the bathroom and i told her thanks. she looked really worried when she told me that she's never hurt anyone before and then i told the words i live by. "you didn't hurt them,you stopped someone from getting hurt"

that's something i always say "i'm not hurting people im stopping myself from getting hurt". my parents didn't care i was getting hurt they told me it was my fault for being so weak and it was. i haven't gotten picked on since i started picking on others. another thing my parents engraved in my head "there are only two kind of people in this world, winners and losers." then they would always say "do not be a loser".

no i will go through with this i wont be a loser. i will win. willow will still have her other friends. maybe i can replace luz as her friend. maybe we'll become best friends and then maybe something closer. although i cant hope on it. my parents would probably think if i loved her or even loved any girl. i would be who they hated the most. i would be a loser.

i have to do this. i have to destroy the portal. i don't have a choice anyway. the emperor would just controll me. force me to do it. why did he pick me though. why me of all people. is there something he knows about me i don't.whatever it is he chose me and i can't go back now.

i arrived at the owl house and crept in through a open window. they have very bad security for being wanted. it sort of seemed to easy. i saw the door in the middle of the room near the front door. i walked forward and stopped. i can't destroy it now. they'll probably hear or they'll be to suspicious when its gone tomorrow.

instead i made a trap spell so that when they put the key in it will disintegrate.i hope that willow won't be to worried. it makes me feel sad whenever she feels down and i often feel bad about how i've treated her. after this i'll treat her better after this and maybe life will be good for once.