how did we get here? [ON HOLD]

"I need this"

-September 21, 2009-

   Nothing much else happened yesterday, I talked to my friends again after they all woke up again- at a normal time for them, to an abnormal time for me, but that was fine. I even almost called my mother too, but decided against it because I didn't need to deal with that kind of emotion at the time. At all yet, actually.
  
   For some reason I had an alarm set for 6 in the morning today. When I woke up groggy, nothing made much sense. Though, that's normal when waking up so early I believe.

   And within 5 minutes, my alarm clock still blaring in my ear, I realized that I had to get up. I have work today.

   Two weeks ago I had taken up a full-time at a random coffee shop we had found near by. I worked all week days while I wait to go to college next year, just a way to get by and help my sister out. It was quite boring honestly, making drinks for (surprisingly pretty kind) customers all day, drinking energy drinks and coloring on random pieces of paper. But I liked that it was simple, and lucky me, I get to wear whatever I want (sensibly of course).

   So, once realizing this, I slapped down on my alarm to shut it off and, very ungracefully, rolled onto the floor, taking a second to sit there before standing up to get dressed.

   I barely ever wear my own clothing, I have a sister with way better style to steal clothes from. But today I know she's asleep so I don't want to go in her room and wake up up. I went to my closet to grab something- a simple band tee (Weezer) and some black skinny Jean's. I also grabbed a black adidas hoodie to slip over my shirt.

   I woddled into the bathroom across the hall and didn't bother turning the lights on before splashing cold water in my face, making a weird inhuman noise and walking out again, putting my hair up in a half falling out lazy bun. I never bothered to put on makeup.

   I grabbed my cookie out of the cabinet and wrote a note to Ivy, even though it was unnecessary- I always did;

   Work. I'll be home by 4- go to work on time and don't wait for me! I can walk.

Love ya,
Elmo ♡

   With that I slipped on my shoes and walked out of the flat to then walk to the shop for work.

***

   About an hour into my shift, 7:32, I had already made about 12 drinks and it seemed I had a short break to check my phone.

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Text from Mickey
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   I opened my phone to the text from Mikayla, happy she was still somehow eager to talk to me after so long. But then again, this is Mikayla Singer we're talking about, my bestfriend, I'd hope she'd still want to chat.

Mickey
7:33 AM

Mick: Morning bitch

Me: ahh I missed that lol
Me: good morning sugar

Mick: haha what you doing?

Me: I work at a coffee shop now, nobody here at the moment though so I checked my phone

Mick: well, you should be work woman! Get off the phone!

Me: Oh shut the fuck up
Me: I got time bitch

   But no, it seems I didn't, because as soon as I pressed send the door to the shop opened and a person walked in.

Me: second thought, no I don't. I'll talk to you later.

Mick: hehe told you
Mick: see ya :)

   With that I put my phone back into my pocket and without looking up fully, I said greeted the customer, "Hello! I'm Emily, what can I get ya?"

   "Oh hey, it's you!" I heard. This caused me to immediately look up, from a far it might seem as though I was fearful of hearing that sentence... from a far. But I was thankfully met with the pretty glue eyes of Louis.

   "Oh yeah, hey," I started with a smile, "And it's you. What's up?"

   "Oh not much, wanted a coffee is all,"

   "Clearly." I said with a wink, turning to grab a cup, "what will it be- on me."

   "Oh um... no I'll pay-"

    He was a lot less sassy right now, I on the other hand was full of confidence, "No you won't. Now answer." I said with the sweetest I could muster.

   He rolled his eyes slightly and chuckled. I made him do that...

   "Alright, a chai latte then, madam,"

   I gave him a smile. A real smile because some how he could make that happen an started his drink, handing it to him when it was finished.

   "Thank you," he said with a smile, "So how have you been?"

   I was a little surprised he asked to he honest, no one but my friends at home and Ivy really ever asked that- even if it would seem to be common decency- not even Marina. But he asked and that made me happy.

   "I'm alright, job is kinda boring though but I'll live," I said with a small smile, leaning against the counter, "What about you, Lewis?"

   He gave me a playful glare for the name, but also giggled, "I'm okay, but I know what you mean about the job. Work a part-time at a bookstore down the street."

   "Ah, that's probably worse? I do kinda like it here though, simple. And it smells good."

   Louis laughed at that, which made me giggle a bit too. But of course, moments have to end sadly. A couple walked in this time and started toward the counter. Damn.

   Louis seemed to notice them too, "I'll let you work... What time do you get off?" He asked with  what seemed to be a sad smile.

   "Uh, 3:30," I replied, half knowing why he asked but also unsure.

   "Okay, I'll be here. Let's hang out yeah?"

   Another genuine smile, wow.

   "Yeah, yeah, sounds good. See you then." Louis got up then and walked out if the shop, his drink in hand.

   I was happy. I gave the couple a real smile before taking their order.

   It was lovely really, he made me feel less alone and welcome somewhere. I liked that a lot.

   It's hard for me to be really happy, it has since I was 10 but it was worse when we moved. But, just by talking, my mood is very much lifted.

   I need this. I like that I have it... well, hope I havenit anyway- it's the second time we are hanging out. But still, I need this.

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This one is kinda short? Idk it's not super important, just a filler. I had (have) a lot on my mind while writing this so sorry it isn't too great. I wanted to write so I could say I'm doing something to hold it together. Anyway yeah, hope it was alright?

SQ: I don't have one lol sorry

GTK Q: um... favorite color? (Sorry, my brain isn't working.)

MA: well, a few. I really really really like green, like forest green and grass green. Not neon though. And I like pastel pink and blue because they are just really pretty.