Teardrops

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Yumi

"Ok class, the rankings will be posted in the bulletin this morning. That's all, you may now take your break."

Napahiyaw ang iba sa aking mga ka-klase nang marinig ang tinuran ng aming guro. Maraming excited sa ranking ngunit mayroon din namang malamyang dumukdok lamang sa kani-kanilang mga desk.

I'm not excited nor happy about the top, for me it's the worst thing I have ever been thinking. I'm too tired to think about my grades.

"Hey, Yumi! Aren't you going to the bulletin?"

"Nah, you can go first. I still need to do something."

"Hmm,sure. I'm off to go, see 'ya there!"

"Yeah, thanks."-malamyang tugon ko na ikinakunot lamang ng kanyang noo. It's true that I still need to do something.

I heaved a deep breath as I took out my phone and dialled my mother's phone. Wondering? Well it's simply because my parents was too obsessed about my ranking and grades. If you think that it's a good thing? - - Nah, definitely not. It's suffocating the hell out of me.

"Yes, are you in the top??"

I leaned on my sit and silently watched the birds from the window. What does it feel to be a free bird? Are they always joyous and contented? They can roam whenever they want to go, they can stray into different places without thinking about the world. And I want to be like them too.

"Hey! What took you so long to answer??!! Simpleng tanong dimo masagot?! Alam mo hindi na ako magugulat kung hindi ikaw ang top student this semester! You're always dumb and idiot as ever!"

"M-mom, I'm sorry may ginawa lang po ako s-saglit. It won't happen again, s-sorry."

I wanted to slap my own face for no reason. I'm always afraid about my mom getting angry to me. Like it's the worst crime to make her that way, not to be exaggerated but I feel the pressure whenever it comes to her.

Since in my childhood I never made her pleased. Everything that I'm doing was never been enough for her.

"Tsk!! So what now?! Ano na ang result??!"

"I still didn't saw the result mom, I'm still in my way."

I slowly walk out from our classroom.

"What the--- what are you waiting for?!! Go on and see it!"

Napatakbo ako ng wala sa oras nang dahil sa sigaw nya... As I reached the bulletin board, wala na gaanong tao so i took a peek and searched for my name.

'Rank 1 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Yumi C. Luis. -------97.8%'

The others average was below 96 and I felt like happy for the moment! Atlast!! Maybe my mom would be proud this time!

"Hello mom? Still there?"

"Tsk, of course! So what now?!!"

"I'm at the top rank mom, and my total average was 97.8%!!!"-i said with a hint of smile and happiness in my voice. I've been always struggling to achieve the highest rank and now I finally made it!!

But I got dissatisfied when I heard my mom's 'tsk' sound.

" So your happy with that shitty average?!! Why didn't you made it into 98%?! You're really a disgrace!!"-that's the last words she said before hanging up the call.

Bagsak ang mga balikat na tinungo ko ang C. R. habang inaalala ang mga sinabi ni mommy.

'You're really a disgrace!!'