Dreams till dawn

Some stuff went down 5 years ago, this was birthed, found it in my notes.

     A note, imma do the five spaces thing at the beginning of paragraphs, because thats how their supposed to be written, but i wont change it on my actually story, except for the chapters that already have it.

     Oh also, all the super unbearably straight scenes made me cringe reading them now and writing them back then. I then came out as a lesbian. Then i realized i was omnisexual but girls and enbys and everything but guys are my preference. (No offense to guys! I am sorry.)

     Ft. Me going back and basically editing but also kind of not and pucking on a kid that was younger then me, but now is me. Wtf.
     -And my daddy issues lol.

     Chapter 1, the strange dream. (I think?)

     I should have known something was wrong but it seemed so peaceful, I didn't try to  intrude the beauty.

     I had a strange dream, I was standing by a stream in which the water glowed a beautiful blue beyon(d) description, kind of a beautiful mixture of purples of all shades dunked into a bucket of blues beyond imagination. It had a magical feel to it that made me unable to look away as I settled on to the grass. The grass was soft and a bit squishy with the stream beside it. It was a green you'd expect to see in heaven. Then I thought to myself silently (taking away these-" and italicizing thoughts) it's so beautiful! It just seems impossible to see something that can take my breath away as this can!(wheres the space?) I sat there, mesmerized as the beautiful swirl of blues and purples danced in the stream. After a while I grew thirsty and my throat went scratchy. I bent down to take a drink of the glamorous water and saw a flash. Screams echoed from the flash. (Is this in the water? Im genuinely confused) I was engulfed in pain. (Jeez this is some violent water...) The stream returned to me suddenly and all I could do was gasp.  (Extra space?)I could see a boy I oddly already knew as Erik and he was beautiful, dark hair with blonde highlights and gold eyes. (Lol i definetly put zero effort into that. Have you seen the freaking paragraphs i have on minor characters? As of now, no.) I flashed back to my reality with a jolt of pressure and I stood up in my bed " (dude that extra space and no capital making me cringe) hello? Who are you, I don't understand." I heard someone who sounded like me say. (I was waiting for the clarification that it was me, it never came.)
I nearly fell off my bed as my knees buckled and I passed out again.

     I was knocked out cold. I felt as if I was on sleep medication because, when I woke up, I felt drowsy like all the other times I've taken sleep medication. (Lol thats never happened why did i write this) This time the drowsiness was keeping me from even wanting to open my eyes. I felt so tired till I looked over to see the time, 9:00
"School start at nine ten!" (Buster your eyes are still closed.)
I exclaimed, (uhh theres not supposed to be another paragraph ok or something.) I was extremely late, and to make it worse, it was my first day! (Bitch you done for) I went to school and I had a similar schedule to last year making it so much easier. I had to walk to the office with some overly friendly kids,Stephanie, Ari, Marin, (now i have a friend named maren fr, back then i didnt know her.) and Lana. But that wasn't what tripped me off. (Have you opened your eyes yet?)

     The boy named Erik was in three of my classes he was extremely cute. (Oh my god please help i know realize i could have made this gay and im c r i n g i n g ) I had never had a crush and thought very poorly of myself (i have d e p r e s s i o n ) but he seemed very strange, there seemed to be a dark shadow coming from him. (Straight girls be going for the bad boys, i be going for the straight girls going after the bad boys please help im in love with my best friend)
So mysterious I thought to myself. (I hate it.)
He looked at me and scowled
I started hyperventilating.(what in the everloving god is making you hyperventilate, i mean, dude.) I could barely stay focused in class when he was there. I was to busy stealing glances at him to concentrate on whatever my professor was going on about. I was not a very great student but somehow I manage to keep my grades up but this is not how I thought to myself embarrassed you don't have time for boys, paityn (i freaking deadnamed myself- AND ITS LOWERCASE, which happens with every other time i say a name, and some i switched, so their uppercase now.)!". But still I couldn't look away ,(nani? I put the space before the comma..)I was trapped in his gaze."His eyes are gold" I noted silently "no,( )it's more of a yellow tinted brown then gold.". Then the teacher called on me"uhh, pardon I didn't catch what you said" I said under my breath, then I responded
"uhhh, the square root of 12?" (Im not sure if there is a square root of 12, uh. Ok.)
I didn't actually know what class I was in.
"No I asked what would happen if the sun crashed into the earth and jupiter sneezed." he said sternly(wtf this sentence exists for what?)I responded in(-)
"uhhh(,)"
I hadn't done my study's over the break, (well thats me summed up) and I droned on until three minutes later the bell rang and we were assigned homework. I watched as Erik sat up and left the room, he glanced at me momentarily, quickly I took my chance to speak. (Dude technically you can talk to him during class, also, you could scream in class, you just choose not to)
"hey,( )uhh,( )Erik can I sit with you at lunch"
He looked at me and scowled, I looked away. "No, and why would I want to sit with you it's your first day of school, stupid(,)"(dude Erik is a jerk, and wtf is that reasoning.) The rest of school flew by. I noticed that I nearly fell over when he scowled at me a couple of times. There was a lot of noise during lunch I would have probably gotten a headache if my absentminded-ness (weirdly enough thats correct) wasn't so... beautiful, and distracting...........(holy time thats a lot of dots.)