All My Love (s4s)

Bare Your Soul Pt.2

Jae in the media

Timma
I felt a huge weight lifted off my chest now. However, her gaze is making me nervous. I never thought i'd have the guts to tell her that. I've kept this secret for so long, that I never planned to say anything. I was just scared. Like I said, this could change everything.

She hasn't said a word yet. She's standing here looking into my eyes. I watched so many emotions flash through hers. I just hope I didn't ruin the best thing that's ever happened to me.

The silence was killing me, so I decided to break it.

"Please, say something." I said just above a whisper.

She opened her mouth to say something, but she hesitated. I turned away from her and sat on my bed. She let out a sigh, and then sat next to me.

"How long have you felt this way?" she asked me

I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding, and answered, "For as long as I can remember."

I let out a chuckle, "Honestly, my feelings for you grew every day. No matter how much I tried to push them away, they were stronger than my denial." she smiled at me.

"Why wouldn't you tell me?" she asked

I looked at her and said, "I never wanted you to find out. You're my best friend. I knew you'd be disgusted with me. We grew up together. We have a long history, and I didn't want to just throw that all away over my desires."

"Who said I didn't have the same desires?" she asked

I looked at her confused," What?"

"It surprised me too at first. But then I read into my feelings, and they were true. I told myself the feelings would pass, but they never did. Then I got scared. Scared you wouldn't want me back. Scared you'd shut me out. I now realize I should've been honest with you. I can only imagine how you must've felt. Thinking I didn't want you in the same way. But I swear I do. It's all I ever think about."

By the end, we were both in tears. It's crazy how we both thought the other would abandon them. I should've had more trust in her than that. She's never judged me before. She's never wronged me in any way. I should've saw her love for what it is. Unconditional.

"i'm sorry-"

"Don't be sorry! You did nothing wrong." she said cutting me off. "I'm just happy you told me your feelings." she finished.

"No, I'm happy YOU told me! I know it wasn't the ideal way, but i'm glad it happened." I told her

"I've never felt this way about anyone else. You bring me peace. In this world, that's priceless." she told me caressing my cheek.

"So.. what does this mean? For our relationship?" I asked eyeing her carefully

"Well, I would love to be with you." she said blushing. She does that when she's nervous. She's so cute.

"I would love that too." I told her

"Okay," she cleared her throat, "Would you be my girlfriend, sweet pea?" she asked cautiously

"Of course I would." I answered hugging her tight.

She laughed heartily holding me in her arms.