My Gay Secret

8th Grade Continues....

So the school year continues and we are getting pretty settled in. We have writing assessment in a week!! I get nervous when it comes to stuff like that because I want to be a nurse practitioner or a doctor. I don't know yet. But anyways we still talked and I claimed him as my 11:11.. 11:11 is a time you make a wish and he was my wish all the time. I wouldn't miss that time for the world. Sometimes I would even set alarms 5 minutes before just so I could make that wish. Everyone was asking me who it was and guessing all of the girls and I would just shake my head and laugh. I got a kick out of that one. Then my best friend Shelby Armstrong asked me who it was. She was also guessing girls. Then she said well I guess we know who true friends are, insinuating that I wasn't a true friend. I had to do something. I went in the bathroom and said well what if it isn't a girl. The shock on her face looked so crazy and she was pale. Then it clicked in her head. She guessed his name and I was like that is the one. From there on out, my life would not be the same. I got more comfortable telling people. Just my best friends but then word spread and everything got out. The whole school new I liked guys and I couldn't take it back now because people had already assumed and I just said they were true so they would know I was lying. So why not accept it. I did and I had a suspicion someone told him it was him but he didn't say anything about it.

So life continues and tomorrow is writing assessment!!! I get freaked out, I lay down and try to go to sleep and then all of a sudden my phone is vibrating like crazy!!! It is him blowing me up 😑 I was pissed. He said that I wasn't a true friend for not telling him and he sent me like 40 stickers off of Facebook!! That is a lot. I said you know what fuck it!! It is you and has always been you.. I didn't want to tell you because what if you weren't my best friend anymore. That would kill me inside cause I would rather be your friend than anything more.. Do you wanna know what his respond was!!!!....