promise me

im Ecnal

Hi. My name is sylvie. I am 15 years old and im starting a new life here in middle school. Im in the 8th grade and surprisingly not the oldest. I moved away from my father after 4 years of verbal and mental abuse even though my mother, who welcomed me with open arms, took the brunt of my abuse time and time again. Even though ive been given a second chance i cant seem to do much to fix my previous life. I still take too much at fave value and i still hurt people i care about the most. To fix my issues many many rules have been put in place...well at least many for us... The new rules are about my new phone, ive only had it for 4 days. I dont find them unresonable even though they say i do, i have that annoyed look on my face cause im 15, my phone is my life. Its not the rules that get to me, its the way they say them, with venom in there voice, like ive done something horrible, like murder someone. Though i would probably get congratulated for that. When they use that tone it makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out. I hate it when Alto (my moms boyfriend) fake whines about the world and how horrible it is in a mock fun of me. It irritates me so much cause i don't think like that. Some of what i think actually makes an iota of sense. I get 15 more minutes of being alone and i cant even cry like i want to. Because if i cry im gonna get yelled at for being upset over something stupid like rules and thats not what im crying over. I hate disappointing people. It actually physically hurts when i disappoint someone. The rules of my phone are; two hours of spcializing everyday, i get one hour of alone time in my room, and if someone is talking to me my phone must be out of my hands and away from me so i can resist the urge to text while they are talking. I dont find these unreasonable so long as they follow them too, two hours is two hours. If it happens to be past 6 o'clock and i happen to not have been done with two hours than i should be allowed to continue my conversation. Then there is also a reason why we have family time at 8. Why cant i be in my room for more than an hour if we already have family socializing time? I understand the no texting while we are talking rule and im trying, i am. And then there are the fighting rules. We cant ruff house anymore, i dont understand it. If i can interact with my family whats the point with the interaction rules??? Well anyway back to school. So my lunch period is 4th and i dont really know anyone but an acquaintance of mine named eloc. Luckily his lunch is also fourth. I grab what to me looks like the best food any school can make on this planet and sit at his table. "Hi" i waved to the rest of the guys sitting there "im new, im a friend of eloc's" some of them nod and some of them say hi back and then continue on their marry way. One day during lunch this kid name ecnal stood out to me. He always has this grey sweatshirt on and is very quiet, ive always wondered why. Well this other kid at the time was giving out a granola bar and i was still hungry so i offered to take it. The kid held the bar away from me "i was actually planninv on trading it for something" i looked back down at my plate "oh". Then Ecnal did something really cool that no ones ever done for me before. He traded one of the things from his lunch for the granola bar and then handed it to me. "Thankyou, my names sylvie" i take the granola bar. "im Ecnal"