Change
Not wanting to let go is the hardest thing, not wanting to believe the difference, not wanting to believe how different but better? but not wanting to believe the mistakes you've shattered over and over again. Viewing yourself in the mirror but seeing someone different, someone who seems fine but see's the reality of betrayness. Someone who's fallen multiple times but never learns but knows too. Someone who wants to disappear. That happy girl she used to be. The no fear she had for speaking her mind has now changed to a girl who keeps things deep inside. Scared. Lonely. Different. But yet "beautiful" as her only angel repeats everyday.
Diamond
Shining bright like a diamond under the moon light, ecstasy rolling down my throat, a changed sight. The nerve to look up high though i'm easy to please, left for these hunters, like an animal, I'm their food they sieze. Always followed by my shadow even if I die, but just remember that glem you see, its me in a diamond in the sky.
Natural
No I don't need a fake powder covering my face. Orange face, red lips and thick lashes. I call them ladies fake. Faker than a barbie doll posing as a slutty babe. I'm all about natural. Dark eyes and a smile. Pink soft lips bringing the colour of my cheeks alive. And there I am, as natural as I can be as i view these fake cartoons smashing their faces into a bowl of powder. Do men want to feel poisinous ink running down their lips or do they want real lips with a touch of pink silk? A cheek to kiss but the feel of heating flush in the winters season or a bunch of foundation in a halloween season?
Feelings
So here I am hoping you can pull my heart out and keep it safe. Here I am following you like a lost puppy in a shallow road. You want sex but I want more. I want feelings and you all over my world. I need to gain heaven and paradise together. I want your heart to beat fast when you look at me. Want you to feel what I feel when I look ag you. Why did you disappear? Don't listen to me when I scream and tell you to vanish away. I need you here. I need you now.
