American Dream (Zayn Malik AU Fanfic)

Crush?

Walking back to the flat, I couldn’t help but have a goofy smile on my face.

Why?

Because I made her happy.

I made her smile.

That beautiful smile.

I just can’t wait to see what she’s going to do when I get back…no.

No. No.

No, I can’t think like this.

I just can’t.

I love Perrie. I’ve always loved Perrie and I’m not going to move on. I…I just can’t. I can’t do that.

It’s fine to move on, you idiot.

No…I can’t. I may like Cecilia but it’s probably just a crush and I’ll get over it. I love Perrie. I don’t care if she’s not here anymore, I’ll always love her.

It doesn’t mean that you can’t let someone else in.

No. I mean…what I did was nothing. It was just a friendly gesture because she was upset. There’s no way I’m letting go of Perrie.

(Cecilia’s POV):

“Lia, can you calm down? Sit down and stop pacing around.” Eleanor told me.

I sighed as I sat on the couch. “But…I can’t believe he did this for me and like…I want to be the first person to greet him when he comes in and I want to thank him. No one has ever done something like that for me.”

Louis chuckled. “Believe me, I’m positive Zayn has never done something like that before. Not even for Perrie.”

I blink at him, confused. “Really?”

“Well, don’t get me wrong. He was always the romantic type and always surprising her but I mean, he’s never done something like what he just did for you.”

“Sounds like the boy’s whipped.” Niall joked.

Or I think he was joking.

“Haha. Very funny.” I tell him, getting a little flustered.

“I wasn’t tryin’ to make you laugh. I tend to know what people are feeling…most of the time.”

Harry burst out laughing as Liam shook his head. “It was only that one time when I was sitting down looking at the TV while it was turned off, he told me that I’m upset. Ever since then, he thinks he has some sixth sense or some shit like that.”

I shake my head, somewhat amused by them. “Well, whatever sixth sense you have, I’m pretty sure Zayn doesn’t have those kinds of feelings. Neither do I.” Right? “And besides, I don’t think he’s over Perrie.”

“Well, whoever this Perrie girl is, it’s probably time for him to get over her.” Niall said.

“Perrie was his girlfriend.” Eleanor told him.

“You mean is his ex-girlfriend.” He replied.

“No. That’s exactly why I didn’t say ex-girlfriend. She died about a year ago.”

Niall looks as shocked as I was when I first found out. “Seriously? Oh…wow…”

“Yeah, and that’s exactly why this conversation will stay between us. I don’t have feelings for Zayn and he certainly does not have feelings for me.”

I don’t like him…right?

I’m sure I don’t. I mean…okay he’s quite attractive and funny. It’s just a small crush and I’ll get over it. I know I will.