Saturday 17th January 2015
Dear Diary
Is it possible to feel as though you din't fit into your family and you don't seem to get on with them. Well if it isn't then I have no idea what I feel. It's not always my Mum but it can be sometimes. Its mainly my brother and my Step dad. I know your going to think oh that's what brothers are like but is it normal for your brother to try and shut your head in a wardrobe door for going into his bedroom or walking into your bedroom grabbing your guitar untuning it and then coming back in later and ask what have I done to it to make it sound so awful. Also he always bosses me around and pretends he's my dad but not for protective reasons its just for the sake of telling me what to do. Well that's my brother for you, I'm going to call him Giraffe seeing as he is so tall. He is older than me. I also have another older brother called Dog, and older sister called Tulip and a younger brother called Mole (He is obsessed with singing i am a mole and i live in a hole. I have no idea if that's a real song or tune people sing but my grandad taught him it and now he wont stop singing it!) Dog and Tulip are my step brother and sister and Mole is my half brother. Giraffe is the only full sibling I have.
Things have been getting kind of bad when Dog and Tulip are around with Dog being really bad. He always annoys me and constantly walks into my bedroom even if my door is shut meaning he could just walk in on me getting changed or something (it hasn't happened yet luckily) but he knows I hate it. Also he has a habit of calling me names and keeps referring to my real Dad who I hate. Everyone on my Mums side of the family does. As for Tulip well... She can be so disrespectful and unbelievably rude at times and she is really unsociable and spends all of her time on the internet or her phone. She only ever comes off them to have something to eat. Honestly she falls asleep with her phone on her face every night. I know I'm sounding horrible but its true and it fitted with the current subject so I wrote it.
Ok, onto Mole. Mole is so cute and adorable and I love him to bits but if he doesn't get what he wants sometimes he will just scream or cry or strop. No he isn't spoiled its what most 4 year old's do I think. He will grow out of it but it just gets on my nerves all the time and also he seems to enjoy kicking whoever is closest to him when this happens and that's normally me because he doesn't dare kick my Mum or Step Dad because he knows he will get told off a lot so its normally me because if they're at my house Tulip and Dog will be in their bedrooms on the internet, and Giraffe will most likely be playing guitar in his bedroom.
Finally, my parents (when I say my parents I mean my Mum and my Step Dad) they seem to blame me for most things. The other day my Mum had a go at me for not feeding the rabbit when it was Giraffes week to feed the rabbit (we take it in turns to feed the rabbit) and she knew that. To make things worse after I fed him for Giraffes week she made me do it for 2 more weeks after that. I know it sounds stupid but every time I said its Giraffes week she just yelled at me and made me do the rabbit. My Step Dad also has a habit for shouting all the time, sometimes he just makes things up to shout at us for it. The most recent one was he shouted at me and my brother for saying it was going to snow this weekend (I had previously checked and it was) and he kept saying it was due to snow during the next week but he just wanted to have a go at us so he told me off for saying it was going to snow.
So this is what my family can be like. But there are times it can be fun and I enjoy it. So I look forward to them times and try to focus on them if I ever feel like everyone is shouting at me and trying to be my Dad or boss me around.
From Hannah
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