I have nothing without you (Ichigo x Rukia songfic)

(Orihime)

Slumping into Keigos kitchen chair

I stirred my tea absent minded

''Was he any better today..?''

He asked me

Sounding hopeful

I shook my head sadly

"Same as every other day..''

Keigos face fell

And his hands tightened their grip on his coffee mug

Were I not here

I'm sure he would cry

I wanted to cry too

There was nothing we could do for him

Our friend

The man I love

(Ichigo)

The rain was pounding down hard against my window

The wind howled

But I hardly heard it

Hardly noticed

Am I better off dead?

The bottle of scotch slid from between my knees

and rolled across the floor

Soaking the white carpet

Am I better off a quitter?

Laughing bitterly

I couldn't help think how angry she would be if she could see this

If she could see me

They say I'm better off now

Than I ever was with her

''Rukia..''

I felt a pang of sadness the second her name left my lips

Rukia Kuchiki

The only girl I've ever loved

Probably the only girl I'll everlove

Walking between Chad and Keigo

I was hardly five steps outside

And already regretting the decision to go out

As they take me to my local down the street

Sensing this

Keigo gripped my shoulder

As if t comfort me

''C'mon, Ichigo it's been six months.. you gotta move on''

Forcing a smile

I tried to sound cheerful

''Yeah, you're probably right''

I'm smiling but I'm dying to drag my feet

The bar reeked of sweat and beer

Ignoring it

I plopped down between my two friends

Not bothering to keep up with conversation

They say a few drinks will help me to forget her

''What can I get you, cutie?''

The young waitress gives me a 100 watt smile

She was blonde