when you got back home from the drive in , you continued to listen to the record from earlier .
"and this ones ride the lightning , the song we named the album after ." james said all excited .
after that , you both listened to "for whom the bell tolls" , so far your personal favorite . the song ended .
"babe i dont know if you wanna listen to the next one ." james said unsurely .
you didnt respond . you knew you could handle it .
"suite yourself .. this ones fade to black" he said .
the intro to the song was beautiful . with a gorgeous solo that kirk did . then it goes into a soft sad fingerpicking part . you hear the lyrics .
"life it seems will fade away
drifting further everyday
getting lost within myself
nothing matters no one else
i have lost the will to live
simply nothing more to give
there is nothing more for me
need the end to set me free"
"umm .. baby ? you dont actually feel like this do you ?" he didnt answer . you turned your head and starred at the ground , listening to the song again .
"things not what they used to be
missing one inside of me
deathly loss this cant be real
cannot stand this hell i feel
emptiness is filling me
to the point of agony
growing darkness taking dawn
i was me but now hes gone"
you said nothing . tears ran down your face as you heard the last of the lyrics .
"no one but me can save myself but its too late
now i cant think
think why i should even try
yesterday seems as though it never existed
death greets me warm
now i will just say goodbye
goodbye"
kirk played a very sad solo at the end of the song . it matched the vibe of the song perfectly . but you were worried about james . you tried to hold it together .
you know james ..." you broke down mid sentence . "you can always talk to me when you feel like this ." you said sobbing . you had this really sick feeling to your stomach .
"sweetheart please dont cry , youre breaking my heart ." he said looking at you sad .
"this isnt about me . im worried about you ." you said .
"honey . nothing is going to happen to me . ive felt that way before , but not anymore . please dont worry about me darling ."
he began started to stroke your hair to calm you down , but you still couldnt stop crying . he really didnt expect it to upset you this much . he picked you up and carried you to the kitchen and set you on the table for you to sit . he went to make you something to eat , trying what ever he could do to make you feel better .
"what do you want to eat darling ?" he asked .
"ummmm .. can i have a lemonade ?" you said .
your face lit up and you said it with a smile . with your makeup messed up and your eyes puffed up .
he made you a lemonade and sat you down on the couch . after you drank it , you started to yawn a bunch . in your defense , it was 1 oclock in the morning .
"are you tired baby ?" he asked . you nodded and you both walked to bed . he layed down with you . you were laying ontop of him . he kissed your forehead as he used you as a teddy bear .
as you were both half asleep , you said something in a sleepy voice .
"i had alot of fun at the drive in with you tonight ."
just a short little story . have a great weekend yall💗
-dixie❣️
