We Are Mean't To Be

He's Gone For Real

He’s Gone For Real

Two days after Jake blew me off I stayed in bed and didn’t go anywhere; the days were passing slowly and painfully. Vivian and the others were worried but I locked my door with the best spell I had and no one could get in. My face was pale, my eyes blood shot and my nose red like a chilly pepper. 

This morning I actually got out of bed and slowly made my way to the bathroom, I looked even worse than yesterday. I washed my face and took a long herbal bath, when I got out you could say I looked normal but you could still see the pain in my eyes.

I did my hair into a low ponytail and put on black shorts with a matching black tank top and made my way back to bed. My heart was aching and I couldn’t keep it in, the endless tears started to flow again until I was out cold.

“Huff   huff”  I breath in and out trying to catch my breath as I stared at the damp earth beneath my white paws. Then I heard the rampaging movement not far behind me, I had to keep on going. I moved swiftly and made it to a field full of green fresh grass and a large flat rock under the large oak tree in the centre of the field. I used all my strength to force my body on, but I was too weak I barely made it to the stone when the snarls and growls were surrounding me, then I felt my body be thrown onto the solid rock and the swift figure of a dark brown wolf flying onto me with his jaw wide set and ready to chomp down on me, I had to move, I must go on, I need to find her but before my eyes my heart was bitten out of my chest, excruciating pain as I felt my body try to heal itself to no avail, the last seconds of my life all I could think about was the pain I was going through and the deep red blood that trickled down my fur onto the stone slab, under the oak tree, my sister and I planted where our mother was killed.

“Thump, thump, thump” my heart raced, I squeezed my chest but it only caused more pain, tears rolled down my pale face onto my already soaked pillow, I gasped longing for air to fill my starved lungs but it just wouldn’t, I couldn’t scream or make sound all I could do was face the pain of my heart being separated from my body, before I knew it, it was all over, all the pain, all the sorrow, all that was left was me and my brother, we were running around the stone slab throwing oak seeds in the air and watching it fall to the ground that accepted it with open arms, all that was heard was my sweet sing song laughter filling the air causing my brother to grin from ear to ear and his purple eyes of wonder to sparkle in the sunlight.

“BWAM, BWAM, BWAM!” then my door flew open and Viv ran in with everyone following hurriedly. I don’t know what happened but I had a strong feeling in my gut that James was gone forever and I did nothing to stop it. My heart still throbbed and my breathing was uneven but I felt different and I smelled Viv’s perfume extremely sweet to the point that I might suffocate but then I smelt it the blood suckers stronger than ever, they were now all in my room with worry stretched upon everyone’s face.

“What!” I snapped, more agitated than I actually was. This shocked everyone.

“Are you alright, you were screaming your lungs out and no one could hear your heart beating and then your spell broke down, WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON MISSY, one you lock yourself up two I thought you were dead and then you snap at me!” she ranted. While I thought about what was going on, so my brother is dead my heart stopped beating probably because I was experiencing my brother’s death [probably because of our close connection] and now I snapped for no reason because I’m a dog who is out of practise, great, splendid, perfect, lovely.

“Eh emm” said Vivian tapping her foot.

“Am……..Well……….my brother’s dead and that therefor made me feel his death causing me to die for a short period of time which makes me next in line for chief and that triggered my wolf gene and I’m a bitch again……I think that is what happened five minutes ago” I said and sighed while falling back to bed.

“Ohhh honey I didn’t have a clue, I’m so sorry” she said below a whisper while kneeling down and caressing my hand and looked into my eyes with pity.

“I don’t need your pity!” I said angrily and snatched my hand away rather harshly.

“Anna!” she said shocked and stood over me.

“sorry” I said after realizing what I just did and now I felt bad, so I sunk back into bed like a scorned puppy, which I was.

“Honey, I don’t know what to do” she said exasperated and turned to Carlyle.

“Well I know a pack of wolves who I think would help” he said unsurely while looking at me curiously.

“where?” asked Viv immediately.

“In La Push”

“Let’s go now”

“Oh no!” I shouted.

“Why? You need help” viv argued.

“No I’m fine and I really don’t want to have to deal with a pack, I’ve been in one before and it sucked” I argued my point from then on and luckily won. Everyone left but Violet stayed.

I told violet everything including my confused emotions for Jacob and about the way he treated me terribly, I actually started to tear up [I never tear up]. Violet hugged me and rocked me back and forth.

“I’m sorry that you have so much to deal with all by yourself” she said then pulled away “Sheesh you’re burning up” she stated truthfully.

“What you expect” I asked knowing she expected my heat. She gave a shrug then looked me in the eye and asked with an extremely serious face “So are you going home to help your family after all you are a wolf again because you have to be alpha……right” she asked unsurely.

“I don’t know and I don’t want to think or speak of any of it……..okay?” I said pleadingly and giving her my best puppy dog eyes that no one could resist.

 “Okay” she said hopelessly

 “You need to rest, I’ll go and come back in a bit, see you later sis” she said with a small smile and rose slow and unsure and walked out of my room, I could hear her feet pad down the stairs and even walk into the living room, I almost forgot how it felt to have all my senses. I was actually tired and did need sleep like violet said, so I slowly closed my eye lids and prayed that I’d wake up tomorrow and none of this had ever happened but I knew deep down my life was now even more crazy than it already was.