My Euphoria || J.JK Fanfic

Eight

The sadness gradually turned into low self-esteem.

I look down upon myself, I don't feel good in my own skin, I judge myself more than anyone else.

I had plan to go out with Hoseok. He insisted too much to have the dinner outside. I said 'no' numerous times but he didn't listen. And I lost.

I knew why he was insisting. He was hoping it would make me feel better.

Would it really help?

I saw myself in the mirror. There were dark circles under my eyes. I became skinny as I lost some more weight. The bangs grew much longer.

I was a mess.

And maybe he was right.

The other girls are million times prettier than you.

Those words keep playing in my head 24/7.

Hoseok came to my room and I didn't even notice. He spoke up, "What are you looking at for so long?" And my gaze shifted at him.

"Looking at how ugly I am." I replied looking at myself in the mirror.

He came closer and stood behind me. He pointed at my eyes in the mirror and said, "These are the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen." He pointed at my cheeks and said, "These are the softest cheeks I've ever seen." He pinched my nose saying, "The cutest nose I've ever seen."

"And these are the most beautiful hands I've ever held." He kept saying.

Then he faced me towards him. "And you're the prettiest woman I've ever seen." He said and left a kiss on the back of my palm.

I laughed out loudly. "You're saying all these to make me happy. It's not true, and you know it well, Hobi."

He held both of my shoulders. "Have I ever lied to you?" He asked.

I looked down. And shook my head and saying, "No."

"Then?" He questioned.

He lifted my chin up and kissed on my head. "You're beautiful as an angel. You got that? Never judge yourself like that." He said.

I nodded my head.

Hobi can't lie. I know that.