Finding me

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Edited: Luvhani Dathi-Praise Mudau

Cover: Caprynda Munyai

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"I don't want to hurt you" he says

I place my hand on his face and pull him back to me but he resists.

"You won't hurt me" what am I saying? What am I doing right now?

"I will but let me not do anything anymore, now you know why I chase you out" he stares at me

I am smiling but I want him to touch me more, no what is wrong with me?

"Damn you are so tempting, please go" he's now sitting down still looking at me
He lights a cigarette and exhales, I find that sexy now. The way he looks at me as he smokes it, his serious face and piercing eyes that never stare more than they're supposed to, his smile that comes out only when necessary. Am I just horny or is my mind playing tricks with me?

"I have to go" I really have to go back and do my work

I think I just came back to my senses, he doesn't say anything as I make my way out of his office in a rush.

I need to get my head off what just happened if it's possible and act normal because I'm at this floor that has eyes and ears. I also need to stop going to K's office, what did I just do? I don't know how I feel about him but I know for sure I really like Tebogo. I shouldn't have allowed him to do that to me, to even get too close for me, I don't want to be one of those girls on his hit list but at this moment none of that comes to mind it's like my mind is dysfunctional.

My phone vibrates on my desk, its Dikeledi. I can't talk to her, I feel so bad and weak. She now bothers me just as much as K does, I don't want to end up in her trap. If she ever finds out that I kissed K no doubt she will kill me, God help me save my life from these two. Arg she'll never find out, obviously K will not tell her because I was one of his moments, why am I still thinking about it now? Focus Tshinondiwa.

"Hi Nondi, How are you doing?" it's Mokgadi aka the nosy lady

I have missed her irritating me like for real. Plus she looks good in braids, I always see her in a weave.

"I'm good thanks and you?" I smile

"I'm good, Xiluva asked me to give you this file" she hands it to me

"Thanks, you look beautiful" I say
She blushes.

"You look good too" she says

I don't know about that but I'll take it and shove it away. Xiluva will do anything to get rid of me and so will Thabang. I always have to make sure that I don't piss them off or it will be the end of me. When am I going to even have a normal day after kissing K, not forgetting that I had the best night with Tebogo, what is wrong with me? I am now feeling guilty, I don't know who to talk to because I don't have any friends, Rudzi is not an option at the moment as things are a bit awkward so I have to deal with this alone. I told myself that I would not be involved with anyone until I clear my name, now I am in this mess I don't even know how I even got myself in. The last time I remember K hated me and he would always want to fire me, Tebogo on the other hand would snap at me and dismiss me. How did I end up here?

"Are you okay you look like you just saw a ghost" It's Rudzani

I wasn't expecting her here, why is she here?

"Guess what, it so happens I'm friends with one of your colleague, Samkelo and we were talking and your name came up. To my surprise you've been here for months now and I knew nothing about it" Rudzi utters