fun little mini scenes from my shifting attempts💔

yule ball

(authors note: this was when i was having a panic attack and i start visualising dancing with him to calm me💘☺️)
(i put on a slow song before i started)
my eyes shut close as i try and picture me and draco dancing at the yule ball.It takes a bit but finally i got it.  his white suit all neat and he looks so handsome. he looks so stunning.  his hair is slighty messy from the wind but he looks so good as he is. the music starts and one of his hands goes to my waist and the other to my shoulder. its slightly uncomfortable at first but  we start just swaying to the music as i begin to talk to him , " i cant do this, i need to shift. i didnt even want to come to the cabin and its making me panic" i lean my head into his shoulder as he pulls me closer. "just wait until the weekend is over and then you can come see me" his voice is calm and angelic. tears start pouring out of my eyes as i focus on the music and we are now just swaying as everyone dances around us. " i wanna see you so bad" i say . "im right here" he tells me. his voice makes all my worries go away and he makes me so addicted to him. it pushes me to want to shift even more. "just breathe" he says calmly. i inhale and exhale with him and i slowly calm down. "there you go baby, just breathe. im here "  I am calm but i have so much to tell him . " i didn't even eat dinner and i want to puke " i say. he pulls me from his shoulder and says "baby you have to eat" I put my head on his shoulder again and we just dance for a minutes. i open my eyes and im back to reality , this sucky reality that i can't escape. I find i cant concentrate after and my mind is always on that dance. I visualise the scene later on and its just as special:)
(i cant explain how angelic this scene was, it may have been that my mood wasnt the best but this whole thing was so surreal to me its unexplainable)