When your enemy learns about your panic attacks

PART-1

Dear readers, 

•This series contains curse and inappropriate words like depression, self harm and etc which some readers may find it uncomfortable, so read it at your own risk

• This series may also contain some mature content 🔞, so if you're uncomfortable DO NOT read. 

• Others, enjoy reading and do let me know your thoughts about it in the comments ♡

𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙢𝙮 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙨 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙥𝙖𝙣𝙞𝙘𝙠 𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙖𝙘𝙠

Authors POV

You wake up groaning lightly as the sunrays were beaming on your face. Like any other you did your morning routine. And left your house, without breakfast as always. Yeah.. You lost your appetite. After a 10 minutes walk you were standing in front of your school gate. "I don't like school"you mumbled . You let out a sigh and went inside. Yes you didn't liked school actually you hated school. Why? Well there were alot of reasons . One of the main reasons were you don't like humans especially who bothers you everytime. You went in pulling your hoodie's cap thing(lol idk what's it's actually called) . You went to your locker and as always there were tons of sticky notes stuck on it.

"Rude"

"Arrogant"

"Bitch"

Removing all of those you started picking up the books you needed. But before you closed the locker, one note caught your attention, that said.

"Bloody orphan"

Orphan. Yes you were an orphan. You lost your dad 2 years back when you were 16. He commited suicide. You didn't know the actual reason but mostly it was because of his rivals. Your father worked in a absolutely high figh company, one of the largest earning companies in Seoul. He was the CEO of the company. Because of which he had many rivals. And your mom? Your mom ran away after 3 days of your fathers death. Why?

*FLASHBACK 2 YEARS AGO*

"You f*cking bitch! " Your mom yelled slapping you harshly that made you fall on the ground. You groaned loudely because of the pain. 

"Because of you your father commited suicide! Because you were the only reason of his stress!! No actually you are the reason of all of our stress!" Your mom exclaimed. Tears were flowing through your eyes continuously. 

"If I stay with you any long maybe I will finish myself too.. No no I won't let that happened you.. You will suffer!!!" Your mom exclaimed and rushed to the first floor where your baby sister was sleeping peacefully. She took her in her arms and rushed outside of the house with her luggage. Before she could keep a leg outside of the house, "No mom please do-don't leave me you know I have no one besides you and my sister"you cried. " I am not your fu*king mom! " Your mother yelled out you and left the house. 

*FLASHBACK END*

Your life has been changed like anything. You were so deepen in your thoughts that you didn't realise the person whom you hated the most was coming behind you. 

"Hey Fat Ass? Again spacing out? " He yelled from another side of the hallway making everyone laugh in the hallway. You ignored him as always and went to your class you sat at the last corner bench. Plugging your earphones in you looked out of the window and started admiring the sky. 

Well you would be lying if you said you weren't rude, arrogant, cold. You were all of this but unless anybody distrubes youtoo much you keep your mouth shut. Well you weren't like this before, before as in 2 years back you were the happiest, bubbly  and friendly soul someone has ever met. You had everything. Good friends, Loving parents, and most importantly your baby sister whome you loved dearly.

After your dad's death your bright world surrounded with darkness, sorrow and hardships. And your mom made it even worse after leaving the house. After she left your neighbour who was really close to your dad started take caring of yours they loved you as your daughter. But you? You were diagnosed with a severe depression. You tried killing your self alot of times but you anyhow survived. After some months you decided to live alone again though your neighbour were not convinced with your decision but still they knew that yourstubborn soul once decided something will definitely do it. Your depression went more worst after that your neighbour used to keep checking on you. Nightmares and panick attacks were like your part everyday routines. Yes you get panick attacks at least thrice a day.

After some months you join your school again and their was the first you saw alot of changes. You thought at least your friends would be there for you to comfort after what happened but all your expectations were gone into vain. They started looking at you with disguised eyes.

You were already living a very bad life for making it worse your enemy aka Kim Taehyung joined your school. He bullied you every single second to make sure he was making your life more difficult and like hell. Well he succeeded anyway.. But he

never bullied you physically, but his harsh words that was even worse than physical bully. It wasn't your first time you were getting bullied.

Again your thoughts were broken out by the school bell , indicating it was lunch time. You quickly wrap up your stuff and started to walk out of the class. You were currently walking through the hallway when suddenly someone called your name. "Y/N" . And it was quite obvious for you to recognize that voice. You stopped at your way and turned around, where your 2nd bully aka Mina was standing. "Hello bitch how are you? " She exclaimed with a smirk. You ignored her and turned around when you were about to walk away she yelled "Don't you even dare to ignore me!". " What do you want mina? " You turned around and said to her in a cold voice.

" You know what I want, don't you? " She said smirking again. She came closer to you and whispered in your ear " I want to make your life hell". You pushed her harshly that made her fall on the solid ground. That made her grown. "You fu*king bitch!". She yelled and got up and snatched a water bottle from one of the students and threw it on your face. You frowned. You were about to say something but you realised your legs and hands were shivering. " Shit" You mumbled.

You were getting a panic attack.