Taking Over Me (An Outsiders Fanfiction)

Chapter 8

Diana's POV

Soda shook me "Wake up sweetheart."

"Leave me alone." I groaned.

"C'mon. Breakfast is ready." He left the room.

"Ughh" I accidentally rolled off of the bed and landed on the floor with a bang.

Getting up, I grabbed a pair of skinny jeans and a black tank top. Then I brushed the knots out of my long brown curls and walked into the kitchen.

"Whatcha cookin, Darry?" I stretched my arms.

"Pancakes." He replied without looking.

With my back turned, I got the awful feeling that I was being watched. I didn't even have to turn around. I just knew it was Ponyboy. And that made me feel a lot worse.

As always, the whole gang was in the Curtis house, and they looked at me with sympathy. Soda must have told them all that happened. Honestly I could care less. I just wanted to forget about it.

A knock on the door grabbed hold of my attention. Steve went to open the door.

"She doesn't want to talk to you." Steve scowled at whoever it was.

"C'mon man, just once, please?"

I walked up and shooed Steve out of the way.

It was James who stood in the doorway with an apologetic look on his face.

I put my hands on my hips so he could get the point.

"Uhm.. I'm sorry Diana.. I really am. She's just a friend, I promise!" He pleaded.

"Is that right?" I asked. "Since when do friends make out with one another?"

I felt more eyes glued to my back.

He looked at the ground. "I realized my mistake, okay? What ever happened to us?"

"What do you mean, us?" I felt my rage building. "There never was an us. Just a you trying to make a move on me!"

His voice raised to meet mine "Oh, so now it's just me, huh? If it was just me, then why would you break down when you saw me with someone else?!"

"You know why, James?! Because I shouldn't have to see that! I shouldn't have to see the person I loved with another girl! Do you think it's easy being me? It's not all sunshine and rainbows, James. I've been abused as a child, I almost died," I pointed to my large cut scar, "not to mention that the Socs cut me up! I've disappointed the one person that I love most and now I've lost them too. I shouldn't have to deal with you. But yet I do. And before I break down again, I really think you should leave and go back to your friend. I'm done James. Just done."

I shut the door before he could say anymore.

Avoiding the rest of the gang, I went back to my sanctuary - my room, and shut that door too.

As I expected, no one knocked to see how I was doing. I liked it that way. I'm like a bomb, so volatile. I'm a kind of girl who won't back down, a girl who will put up a good fight. But I'm also a girl who can't fight her emotions.

I pulled my plane ticket out of my bag and looked very closely at it.

I could still hear Kristen's voice already telling me to come back. Why shouldn't I? I can go back anytime I want. Why would I want to stay where I get hurt so much? But what about the gang? We're all just starting to become close. I can't do that to them. But I can't do this to myself either.