My Heavy Burden

𝓒𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓣𝔀𝓸

As I settled in my room I heard a knock on my door. "Come in," I yell.

In coms Sam and Emily.
Emily runs to me and hugs me.

"Hi, Emily, glad to see you too," I say.

Sam laughing says "she couldn't wait to see at training tomorrow morning"

"I can see that Sam"

Emily then slaps me and yells "why the hell did you not call me well you retired and settled"

"Because if I called you it could have been tracked to me, and you damn well know that I would be dead if I had called you!"

Sam gets a call from the guards.
" We will be straight down. "Come on Emily the shooter is up. Time to get some answers."
"I start to follow them when Sam asks me where do you think you are going?"
"I have my security clearance back Sam and you know that."

"Ok" Sam responded with his hands up.

"You too have not changed at all have you." Emily says as we walk to the jail to "talk" to the would-be assassin.

As I enter the jail I remember the last time I was her.

(Flashback: Welling into the jail to see Jacob  "Why... why did you do it."
I cried. Seeing Jacob, someone who I cared for, maybe even loved, who betrayed us. Betrayed me. He got Ryan killed and put me in a coma for 4 months and paralyzed for 3.  Jacob laughed in my face and said "you really thought I loved you. I was using you to get to my  target."

I then wheeled out of there and to Jack's office and asked to retire. I was told once I could walk again I could leave. So 3 months later I walked out of there and thought I would never return.  Flashback over)

I tune back in and see that we are in front of the guy who tried to kill me earlier that day. Sam was asking " why did you go after agent 1801?"   
The son of a bitch laughed at us saying " Jacob was right you are dumb Lilly."

My heart stops. I go to the bars just to see him smile and die. That bloody coward had a cyanide capsule.
"So Jacob has escaped,"  I say.
Emily hugs me Knowing I am going through hell right now.
Sam says "we don't know for sure that he is out I mean we should have heard about it."

Then Jack shows up and says "Jacob has escaped, we were not told because of the hack." 

I officially broke. The pieces that I was just holding together broke! the fear I was hiding came forward and flashbacks started!
( I am at the place where it all started.  We are looking after Prince Willems kids. It was me and my team Emily, Sam, Ryan, and Jacob. It was 1600 hrs AKA 4:00 pm when I was called with a warning to get the kids inside now your position is compromised. The attack will happen in 5 minutes. I tell the others to pick up the treasure we have been compromised.

Sam asks "how long. 4 minutes," I say. Emily grabs the kids and Sam runs ahead to open the safe room. Ryan and my slave stand guard when I realize Jacob is not with us with 2 minutes left. I call him and ask where he is.
He laughs and says " you can join me or die trying to stop me. You have 30 seconds. Goodbye, my little flower." I  ran with Ryan to the safe room but we did not make it before Ryan was shot and fatally wounded. I dragged him into the safe room knowing it was too late.

His last words were " kill that fucking son of bitch for me and will you and tell my Mom and Dad I loved them." After a couple of seconds, he stops breathing and is dead. I let one tear fall for a good friend and fellow Soldier. I covered his body with my jacket about an hour later backup showed up. I hadn't even realized until then but I  had been shot in my kidney area. Emily, our field medic was able to take care of it. before I went to Ryan's home to give his family the letters were all told to write. The letters we hope to God will never have to be given; we generally write one every year and when we are killed. All the ones we have written are given to our families generally by someone from our team and Ryan had previously asked me to do it.