10 December 2000
The day I saw my parents and smiled. I mean who wouldn't right...My first day on earth all smiling,all happy , beginning of my life... everything positive and happy.
As I've hoped so anyway.
Today is my birthday..yess I've spent 22 fucking years on this earth and it's far from positive and happy.
From the past years , I've cried more than I ever smile or at least i used to smile.. it's a very tricky thing for me to be happy or satisfied .I mean what I have to do to be one.
From when I even remember , i was always compared to my elder brother of how intelligent he is, successful , a scholar etc.etc. and me only a disappointment. No matter how much I try in anything couldn't make my parents proud of me or happy.
There hasn't been a day where i haven't cried or cursed myself for not being upto their mark, for lacking in every field, for being what I am now.
I've spent every holidays , every birthday crying listening to their criticism, their disappointment , their judgement.
But didn't loose hope , I thought maybe i would find all that love and support in my friends...lots and lots of them ...no luck there
I talk to everyone literally everyone wishing maybe they could be someone for me but everyone comes with a motive , for their own benefit and leaves once I'm no longer required ... leaving me alone.
Counting I don't even know how many times I've been betrayed by the people i thought are my friend or the people I've dated...let me tell u all disaster, none special to talk about.
So left with no choice..I leave my home and came to Seattle year ago.
Hii... I'm Emma working in a small cafe named La cafe owned by two most adorable and cute boys Ronnie and Will...and my support system who helped a homeless girl , providing her roof over her head , food and a job in an unknown city... which is the reason I share an apartment with them too and Godd they are the sweetest one i know.
The day I told my parents that I'm moving away they were happy or angry can't tell ...bt they showed it all very well... happy because they are finally getting rid of me , of their biggest disappointment and angry coz I'm such a loser, a black sheep, an embarrassment for them.
Well that had to do it coz i was not able to handle more .. I'm already as fucked up as I could and only want one thing that is to wake up one morning smiling looking forward to the rest of the day not a way to kill myself.
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Her shining Star
RomanceShe has seen a lot of darkness in her life. she has been betrayed multiple times. she's not good enough for anyone. She's destroys everything that comes in her way. She's bad luck. until she meets him...that piercing brown eyes, brooding personality...
