✎ first one shot, trust me these get better the more I upload. This is mostly just practice for myself, and for the enjoyment of other people :)
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» oikawa's pov «
I hadn't realized, why didn't I notice all the signs?
How could I have been so blind and naive?
I never believed in the 'soulmate' thing, i always thought it sounded childish and unfair... how the universe just decides who your soulmate is for you? And the causes of it.
But i don't need anyone to tell me who it was, i had an idea already, but chose to ignore it. A bad move on my part, and then it was too late.
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"Tooru!" she shouted from behind me, it was pouring rain and there she was dripping wet from the cold rain, didn't have an umbrella and just her bag atop her head with a large smile plastered on her face.
She ran up to me and lightly flicked my arm, "Y/n?" i practically whispered, that is until i fully realized she could catch a cold. Quickly i handed her my umbrella and took off my jacket, wrapping it around her.
"Hey you don't have to do this, its okay! You'll catch a cold and you have practice tomorrow dummy" she let out a light giggle and extended her arm to shelter the both of us from the rain. "Better me than you" i glance at her and smile, i notice her tug on my jacket correctly and zip it up.
Cute
"Are you up to anything soon? I wanted to ask if you'd like to get some coffee?" she glances away and shoves her unoccupied hand in the pocket of my jacket, i swear i could see her cheeks lightly dusted pink.
"Of course id love to" i notice her look back up to me and smile.
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Looking back on things now, i could have done more, i could have told her that i loved her just once. Every time i look back on how things could have been, i cant help but feel my stomach turn. She was the most precious thing to me, I scold myself at the fact that I couldn't trust my damn instincts.
I still remember that day I got her flowers and the smile on her face was something I replay in my mind every day. It was a breezy morning and i still remember it as if it were yesterday, slightly dry lips and a mustard yellow scarf wrapped around her smaller form.
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"Good morning Tooru!" she exclaims joyfully as she sat at the same bus stop we both take to get to school.
"Mornin' Y/n" I show her a warm smile and take my seat next to her as we wait together.
Should be here any minute
I glance over to her and notice that she seems to focus her sight across the street from where we sat. I follow her gaze and see that she's admiring the flowers from the small corner store, they were quite beautiful. The flowers they had on display were sunflowers, in my opinion... A flower that compliments her beautifully, "they really are something aren't they?" I speak up and look back at her.
She smiles and fiddles with the ends of her scarf as she looks up at me, "yes they really are, my grandmother adored them, they are something I've grown to love as well," I notice her smile slowly fade as she looks down at her boots. Just as I was about to respond she speaks up, "she was the only person who bought me flowers, every week was a new flower. But of course her favorites were sunflowers, she said they reminded her of me." now looking back up at me she has glossy eyes.
I rest my hand atop her head and give her a reassuring smile, "would you like some y/n?" I ask.
Her eyes widen at my question and she lets out a nervous chuckle, "no-no! It's okay you don't have to do that for me-"
"But I want to" I then look down at my watch and notice we have 10 more minutes till the bus arrives.
"Well if we want to get them now we better hurry, right?" I smirk, removing my hand from her head and reach down for her hand tugging her across the road making sure no cars are coming.
"W-wait! T-tooru slow down" she pants as we finally make it to the other side. Setting both my hands on my knees and looking up at her we make eye contact.
"Oh my gosh Tooru, you nearly gave me a heart attack!" she laughs and smacks my arm playfully.
"Sorry sorry! I wanted to rush so we wouldn't miss the bus, now since we're here..." I skim the selection of bouquets and lift the brightest sunflowers I could find, "...might as well take these with us" I hand her the bouquet and notice a faint blush on her cheeks.
"Thank you so much, you have no idea how much this means to me" getting teary and walking up to me she places the flowers on the ground for a moment and embraces me.
The butterflies in my stomach are going crazy
Embracing her back, I wrap my arms around her form and nuzzle my face into her soft h/c hair, smiling to myself I couldn't be more glad to make her happy.
"I should probably pay for these," I say, somewhat muffled from my face being buried in her hair, "yeah you're right" she lets go of me wiping her tears, and picking up the flowers.
"There couldn't have been any other person I would have liked to receive them from, Tooru" she turns back and smiles.
I feel my face get warm, "I'm glad."
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I could have still had all that, I could have still had her.
But yet here I am on my knee's, 32, sitting on soaking wet grass dwelling on my regrets as I scream up at the saddened sky from her grave.
Not a single wrinkle on my face, as if though i was still 20 years old.
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