A New Light In Life

Malek Pronn

~~Finn POV~~

When I woke up, I was comfy with Nutella in my arms and my fuzzy blanket inside a heavy blanket on top of me. I don't know where I am, but I feel safe and calm in here. I was just there laying in bed thinking about nothing when there was a knock on the door.

"..yes?" I am not sure if they heard me since they did not enter right away, but when I repeated myself louder, someone opened the door. Matt entered the room and slowly began to get near me, but at some point, it looked more like he was a small cat that was going to hunt. When he got too near me, I sat up, and he jumped in a really funny way, so I laughed.

"You meany" Matt puffed his cheeks and refused to look at me.

"You won't look at me?" I said with more feelings than I intended to. I wanted to joke with him, but I think that I am still in my heels from yesterday. I pulled Nutella up to cover the majority of my head and looked at him through the small gap between Nutella's head. He was panicking. I wanted to tell him that it was a joke, but he was long gone. I was left there not knowing what to do. I don't need to wait for long before a man that I don't know rushes in with also a panicked face but relaxes when he sees me. 

*Sight* "Matt you need to stop overreacting sometimes" The man sighed as Matt entered the room and was totally red. 

"But but he was about to cry, and when I cry, I don't feel good, and when that happens I cry even more, sooo...." Matt was twiddling his thumbs and didn't look at the man's eyes.

"Matt, you need to remember that not everyone is the same. Not even because you two are littles" The man said when he saw that Matt was going to say something. It was not until later that I could process what he said and my face also blushed so hard that even my tan skin could not cover. I thought that people will think that I just refused to grow up and that is why I have a teddy bear with me, but for him to understand that is very embarrassing!

"Hello Finn, I don't think that you remember me, but yesterday I helped you to get out of your panic attack. My name is Malek Pronn. I am the one in charge of this institution, and before you panic again. Let me explain. This is an institution for people with mental problems that need observation 24/7, but if you need any kind of medications, and you are ok with it, I am a psychiatrist, so I am here to help everyone, but I am also someone that was here before, not as the leader, but as a patient" The man, no wait Malek, said. 

Malek is a name that I have never heard before also the last name. Maybe he is not from here? I wonder why he was here for? But wait if I am here, does that mean that I am a freak? I know that something was wrong with me, and I even tried to go to my school counselor and psychologist, but they did not seem to care about what I wanted to get from the counseling or focused on other things. That really got on my nerves. I went there to find a solution to a problem, and I wanted a solution, but they were focused on other things. I just wanted to know what was wrong with me if something was wrong.

"Earth to Fi~" Matt said. I jumped backward when I found that he was just inches away from my face. Why was he so close? No. What should I do? Too close.

"Finn, look at me. Look at me. Could you tell me the name of your bear?" When everything began to look fuzzy I was able to hear Malek's voice. What? What did he say? My bear?

"The name is Nutella" I didn't notice when I began to balance myself.

"Oh like the cholate spread. You must like chocolate then"

"Nutella is not chocolate. It is made mainly of hazelnuts, so it is made with nuts and not chocolate, and I don't like chocolate that much if it is milk chocolate. I prefer dark chocolate which is healthier than normal ones. And Nutella is called Nutella because of the color" I began to ramble, but it magically helped me calm down when I realize that he is actually listening and doesn't look bored. I can breathe better now.

"I didn't know that. Thanks for the fun fact" Malek extended his hand, and I think that he wants me to take it, so I put my hand on his. He sat on the bed and began to carefully pull me to his lap giving me enough time to pull my hand if I wanted, but I wanted a hug? 

He sat me in his lap and nothing more, and I was actually grateful since that is the most that I can do right now. We sat there for a while until I was normal again. I rested my head in his chest just hearing the sound of his heart. It was calming. I can get used to this.

"This is really cute, but I think it's time for breakfast. Evan is a really good cooker, and if you don't like what he made, he can make anything you want. He would have asked, well he would have made Chris ask you what kind of food you like, or if you want, I can tell them?" He asked me something that no one had asked me before. I don't know how to answer that.

"Ummm I like fruits, vegetables, pasta, salads, umm I don't really fish since it scares me. I can also don't eat spicy things since I don't like the sensation of the spiciness" I began to ramble again. 

"Thanks for telling me. Why don't we go down to eat? Everyone else is waiting for us." 

"Ummm" I said as Malek let me get off his lap and Matt was walking to the door. 

"Yes, Finn?" Malek turned around to look at me.

"I am umm not used to eating with people" I said while I looked at the floor.

"It's ok. We can see if we can go step by step. I just want you to feel welcomed here, and to know that everyone here is the same as you and will try to help you as much as they can.

"Oh ok. Umm, I can try" It's been a while since I ate with other people and it was unnerving, but I can try? yeah.