Twelve years since the Phantomhive Tragedy

Twelve years has passed, where are you now? How are you dealing?

(RACHAEL'S LETTER)

To my dearest Astré,

I beg of you, don't come at my grave and cry, Don't show your dark side over me, although I may not be able to see, Death is a harsh reality and everyone has to go, My dear you must also know, Live your life as you used to live before, Don't cry for me as I will feel sad, Stay blessed as I love to watch you smile, This gloom is not forever, it is for a while! I not am going far away, My dear you have to understand this is not in my hands, This was not planned, My time has come and I had to go, Without me your life would be slow, But, it shall continue in the same way I just like to say, That I will keep blessing you from up there, And will soon come back to you stay strong my beloved son, as you were more a son to me than my own was and well to put it as Vincent would have said on even his proudest of days what better than death can you achieve? Smile in its face, as time cuts by, For he alone is not a traveller, you are too. Rush with it, or against, it will still fly For he who stays nerved and true, will sail through. A race of a kind, a journey appreciably divine, But the end is always a known truth to all. No matter how much you earn or steal, No matter how you stash, you are certain to fall. Fighting for something obscure, all run the tested lanes, Only to search a joy, a peace, in which they believe. But if peace is what you seek, and not only gains, What better than death can you achieve? ~ It will have been twelve years since the tragedy of the Phantomhive manor, I am glad that the heir was none other than you, I always knew your fury to survive would run deep and that is why you suited the Phantomhive name that is if after the tragedy you still bear the cursed name..of which I hope you do, and rebirth it to its former glory..I did not leave I did not leave, Just changed my way, I am not able to say, But, I am the wind you feel, I am in your every zeal, I am the leaf that has fallen down, Look and see around, I am there with you, I did not die, Death is just a real lie! My sweet Astré I am running out of time and in fact I must be getting someone to run you a bath and put you to rest..till we meet again my beloved sky on a sunny day..my rainbow in times of the darkest storms

Love you dearly

Rachael Dalles Phantomhive
Wife of the Queen's Watchdog

(ASTRÉ'S RESPONSE)

To my dearest mother,

It has been twelve years today and I am..dealing as well as I possibly can, although it is certainly not easy, I am trying and remaining balanced and strong for you, as I told you I was married to well not the Midford daughter but infact someone much more radiant and special to me and I still am and will remain so until we can no more and I pray that I can continue to be happy for if not for my beloved wife and loyal butler along with many an other I would not have made it to where I am, I know you had so much hope for me and well..my "brother" but I think this year I should inform you of what really happened as it has been hidden now for much too long and I cannot keep it any longer, after the night of the fire and losing you me and Ciel were kidnapped and made to be as slaves for a demonic based cult..after Ciel was ripped from my grasp and murdered as sacrifice for a demon and I truly felt alone and humiliated and played for a fool, I called upon a demon's power and got exactly what I could have asked for and more, in return well he got to keep me safe and unharmed for all time, me, fearing for disappointment of the other noble communities and other families, as all I was ever destined to be was a sickly spare due to my health issues and mental issues due to my real mother's treatment of me of which landed me with the Phantomhive name and the live I live now, and as of these unfortunate circumstances I would never be Earl in fear of stress leading to either my asthma being a problem let alone my heart, as if what Sebastian taught me I'd correct stress can lead to  heart problems and if I'm correct in assuming the Phantomhive manor and namesake needed an heir, so after selling my soul to a demon of death and possessing the ability some men could only read about in books and see as old folklore, I became Ciel Phantomhive, in order to keep the company and watchdog title I had no other choice so in extend for my own death i took my "brothers" identity, but mother I fear that after all these years he is not dead, and though I know he loved me so so much, I cannot allow him to do so, as if this happens he will take it all and I will either be executed for treason as people along with Ciel himself will assume I planned everything which I did not, or my goals will no longer be achievable and the contract between me and sebastian will become invalid meaning I hand over my soul and remain stuck in a void between both heaven and hell for the rest of eternity and I know that not me or Sebastian want this, so sebastian said it only sounds fair to try to explain to my brother my means of positivity for our name in hopes he will understand and let me keep up the lie, if this fails however I have been told by Sebastian that as it is his job to keep me safe, he will eliminate anyone who stands in the way of me achieving my goals..so in turn I agreed and if Ciel does not agree then for everyone's safety I shall have to kill off the only other descendant of the Phantomhive name..as much as it pains me, despite his constant love and respect for me, the look in his eyes showed that although I tried my hardest to grab his hand and keep him with me he thought he'd been pushed. The pain in his eyes scarred me terribly and now I pray that if it does come to either of our downfalls I never have to feel that guilt and humiliation again..I don't know what would become of me if I did..mother I miss you terribly and wish you were here to guide me through this tough time..I should be fine though will more than just the demon Sebastian at my side, there is no chance of my defeat, I just hate having to think of what will become of Ciel if he does indeed try to eliminate me, as Sebastian will not stand for it in any way, nor will I..I hope you understand my reasons, and well happy birthday to me, I love you more than anything to this day and I thank you for the present, it was quite lovely and I shall cherish it always and forever as I shall cherish what we once had..

Your forever in my thoughts and heart

Love dearly,

Astré Phantomhive