Dear Time.

Dear time
It's me shay. I don't think we've met but I have felt you.sometimes you're too fast sometimes  too slow .

Time , why do you make nights shorter and days longer?I get into bed and before am done with tossing and turning it's already morning.

Let me cut the crap.
I had this long speech planned but I wonder if you also have influence on our emotions too.I had lots of questions to ask you and alot of  things  to shout to your face so let me start with the most important before I forget.

Time,there was when I fell in love at thirteen. It's been seven years down the line and am still in  love with him. Don't even dare put the blame on love it's not his fault .what was a thirteen year old supposed to do with all those feelings. Loving him was the best thing ever ,though I was little I could give anything to have what I felt in his presence.

How I could watch him all day in class and how I could deny when my friends caught me .

Do you realise if that would have happened years later maybe things would have been different .I would have told him how I felt and maybe yeah maybe if he felt the same way we would be planing our future now. But you had to go wrong and let good things happen at the wrong, time.I can't forgive you for that .

Six years later after that I tried to forget him and I used another person and broke his heart. Time ,if only you could turn back ,I would do things differently .

I wouldn't have let him fall in my trap.I was hungry for love I needed someone and he was there I took advantage of the moment. At first I thought I loved him I enjoyed his company but later on I found out that 'time heals all wounds " was a lie.

I never forgot my first love and I have never moved on .That's when I realised he ruined me for other men .

Today I have two wounds which am hoping you will heal.I have my first love which I want to completely forget him but I find myself stalking his Instagram and Facebook accounts.Second I have my new wound which I messed up and led someone on.Though he should be the one hurting since I used him but I am also heartbroken. If only we could skip to when I am already over it and my heart doesn't ache anymore.

Time , just so you know you have not been fair to me.I wish you would make happy moments last .I wish you would be more calculative and logic. Somethings are meant to happen but what goes wrong is you ,time.

We are meant to die but why does an infant die ? Give them more of yourself so they can grow and achieve their dreams.

Time , I wonder how much of yourself I am left with. But I want to make a promise , I am going to cherish every moment . From this day on am going to live to the fullest , enjoy the little I have , be there for all my loved ones.Am going to tell them that I love them when i still can.I am going to love hard ,hug tight ,ride rough , kiss more, pray everyday.

when the time comes for me to meet my maker I want to say I did all I could and I am pleased.

I am hoping that when you are done reading this letter you will feel my pain .I wish that from now onwards things will be different between you and I .

From Shay